It’ll be our secret

All characters represented in this story are over 18. These are real events but the names of the characters have been changed for anonymity. The story is based in the UK so drinking age is 18 and will all be from Hannah’s POV.

This is part 2 of ‘It’ll be our secret’ so I strongly advise to read part 1 to understand what has happened. It is a slow burner so if you are looking for something quick this is not for you. Please leave feedback, I would love to do more!

Based on feedback from part 1 I have decided to make less chapters but to make them more detailed and not as quick paced. I also want to approach a comment made about views on bisexuality, I completely acknowledge bisexuality is valid, but this story is a reflection of events that happened a long time ago when Hannah was oblivious to anywhere in between gay and straight as her sexuality was also very fresh to her and she was young and naive. I really appreciate the feedback from part 1 so please keep it coming!

 

Chapter 1

 

What the fuck am I going to do? On one hand I have this amazing, caring and beautiful girlfriend standing right in front of me, naked, ready to fuck me until I can’t take anymore. On the other hand, I have this straight girl who pretended we never happened but gives me a feeling I’ve never felt before.

“Hannah fucking talk to me! Tell her to fuck off!” Sophie’s still on the phone, and I’m still froze. “Please don’t do this to me Hannah.” She’s really crying. My heart doesn’t know what to do. But my head does.

“Hey, I’m sorry. I need to go. I’ll text you later. Sorry.” I hang up and put my phone on silent. My eyes are fixed on Zoe. My beautiful, happy to be seen with me, girlfriend. And to top it off, her body looks like it’s been sculpted by the gods. “Sorry about that.. I..”

“Don’t worry baby” Zoe’s walking slowly towards me, keeping her eyes on mine, she bends down and puts her arms on either side of me on the bed. “You need to get those wet clothes off you though. Don’t want you getting sick now do we?”

My mind quickly stops thinking about Sophie. All I can do is shake my head from side to side. Every inch of her body is perfect. She starts to slowly unbutton my shirt and takes it off while kissing down my neck, along my shoulder and down my arm. I can tell already she’s going to take her time with me. I grab her by the side of her face and try to pull her in for a kiss, but instead she grabs my hand and sucks on my index finger, slowly flicking it with her tongue to show me what’s to come.

“You’re driving me crazy, please just let me kiss you.” Usually I’m the one who has people begging, it’s hot having someone who can flip the roles.

“When I’m ready to kiss you, I’ll kiss you.”

She gets down on her knees and starts undoing my jeans and is slowly pulling them down and again teasing me every step of the way, she scratching at my thighs causing me to let out frustrated moans. My body may be soaking wet from getting caught in the rain but the fire she’s caused to run through my body has completely cancelled that out. I want her so bad, she’s made me wait this long but I don’t know if I can wait much longer. She pulls off my underwear and spreads my legs. I see her eyes darken as she looks at my wet pussy. She digs her hands into the outside of my thighs and gently kisses the inside. This should not be legal. This should be classed as torture!

“Fuck, Zoe, please, please don’t make me wait any longer, I need your tongue!”

She looks up at my eyes. Gives me a mischievous smirk, and ever so slowly she glides her tongue up through my slit and gently flicks my clit causing my whole body to tremble. “Oh fuck Zoe!” She still has that smirk on her face, and still doesn’t break eye contact and she does it for a second time, but a bit harder. “Please!” This is so fucking hot.

“Please what baby?” She flicks my clit with her tongue again.

“Please just fuck me Zoe. I need you to fuck me!!” I grab her hair in frustration, I thought I maybe grabbed it a little too hard, but she seemed to like it.

“Oh, do you not like it when I tease you baby?” Forth flick “I thought you’d be happy for me to take my time eating your sweet” fifth flick “delicious” sixth flick “wet” seventh flick “pussy.” I was expecting another flick, but just then she sticks her tongue deep inside me causing me to fall back onto the bed and scream.

“Oh my god Zoe!”

She’s pushing my legs wider apart and I pull her face deeper into my pussy. I can feel her tongue deep inside me and holy shit she knows what she’s doing! I feel her hand trace up my leg and she takes her tongue out causing me to gasp and shudder. I thought she was teasing me again, until I felt her tongue on my clit and suddenly her fingers plowed deep inside me.

“Oh babe, I can feel you’re ready to cum already we can’t let that happen so soon” She starts to go slower really taking her time, but I can feel the build-up, she’s going to make me cum so hard, I don’t think she understands how good this feels. “How bad do you want it babe?” She says while gaining a bit more speed, her tongue flicking my clit with every thrust. “Tell me babe, if you beg me I’ll let you cum. I promise” She is so twisted, such a turn on!

“Please.. please don’t make me beg… oh fuck!” I feel her curling her fingers inside me hitting me right on my g spot. “Fuck Zoe, I’m going to cum!” But yet again she slows down.

“No baby, you don’t get to cum until you beg me to make you cum” Fucking devil. Sexy, beautiful, horny, devil. She curls her fingers inside me again.

“Zoe! Oh my god Zoe! Don’t fucking stop!! Right fucking there!” She’s still going at a slow pace, I need to give in. I’m going to have to beg her. “Please just let me cum, I’m begging you! Let me cum!” And just like that, she speeds up, going deeper and harder, sucking my clit into her mouth and flicking it in line with every, single, thrust. I have never felt something this good! The room starts spinning and my visions getting blurry. What the fuck? “Zoe! Zoe! I’m cumming… I’m cumming!”

Just like that, the most intense orgasm I’ve ever felt swept over me, and suddenly there was darkness.

What just happened? Why did everything go black? I try to sit up but I’m so dizzy this has never happened before, did I fall asleep, oh god if I fell asleep she’s never going to get over this.

“Careful baby, don’t sit up so quick.”

“What happened?”

“Well you passed out baby. I was super turned on when I realised, you’re a squirter, but it’s even hotter to know you pass out when you orgasm. You stay still baby, I’m going to get you some water, I’ll be right back.”

She gives me a deep passionate kiss and leaves the room to get me a drink. Number one, I’ve never squirted before I didn’t know I could! Number two, I’ve definitely never had an orgasm so intense that I passed out and number three, how did I get so lucky? I can’t find one single thing not to like about her, she’s funny, smart, beautiful, hot, sexy, great in bed and so caring. I think I’ve found the definition of perfection! She comes back quickly with my water and sits down beside me giving me another passionate kiss.

“Here you go baby. Jen told me to tell you that Steve’s been trying to get through to you.”

Just then reality hits. Sophie. She was on her way here over an hour ago, and clearly didn’t arrive otherwise I would have definitely heard her by now. Where the fucks my phone? Shit, 5 new messages and 3 missed calls, one from Soph, two from Steve.

Sophie — Did you just hang up on me? Your such an asshole! I’m crying in the rain walking in the dark to come see you and you hang up on me?

Steve — Is Sophie with you, she went a bit crazy and threw a bottle at Alan, shouting something about how she only wants you and left. She’s pretty fucking wasted.

Sophie — I can’t believe this Hannah. Go ahead. Fuck your new perfect 10/10 girlfriend. I won’t be here when you’re done.

Sophie — Shit that sounded bad. I mean I won’t be here for you. We’re over.

Steve — Hannah answer your phone. Sophies been gone for a while now. The weathers not calming down. We’re worried. She won’t answer her phone. Please just let me know if she’s there.

Zoe’s looking at me concerned “Is everything okay baby?”

“Steve’s been trying to get in touch with me, somethings happened. I’m so sorry, but I need to go, I’ll be back soon will you wait here for me?”

“Yes babe, of course, but are you sure you don’t want me to come? That weather’s crazy!”

“No, I’m okay you stay here, I promise I’ll be back soon I’m so sorry about this.”

I give her a quick kiss and I quickly throw something on me and to downstairs, I look outside and the rain is genuinely crazy, it has to be a storm. Actually it might just be a normal night, as I said before this place only ever sees rain. I better ring Steve to see if Sophie’s made it back before I go head first into that.

“Hannah? What the fuck were you doing? I was so worried, is Sophie okay?”

“Steve I was with Zoe, I didn’t have my phone on loud, Sophie’s not here, I spoke to her about an hour ago and told her not to come, what the fuck is going on?”

“You tell me! After you left she started going crazy! She was screaming at Alan about how she’s better than Zoe and how Zoe’s not good enough for you. Alan tried to calm her down and then she threw a bottle at him saying not to touch her and that she’s yours and she needs you and only you and then she left.”

“That makes no sense? Why has this happened all of a sudden? I don’t understand.”

But I did understand, Sophie was clearly hiding her feelings for me, but seeing me tonight with Zoe made it impossible to push them away any longer. But that’s not my fault, I did nothing wrong we both agreed to be friends and that was going great, I couldn’t wait forever for her to decide she’s ready, this was not on me.

“Okay cuz, I’ve had too much to drink to drive, plus that weather isn’t safe enough to drive in anyway. I’ll find her and I’ll bring her back. I’ll see you soon.”

I quickly text Zoe to let her know what’s going on.

Zoe — Hey baby I’m just leaving, I’ll be about 1 hour, 2 tops. One of the girls from Steve’s party had a bit too much to drink and is lost somewhere so I’m going to help get her back. Take a wee nap and when I get back, I’ll wake you up in a way you won’t forget 😉 xx

Zoe — Be careful baby, I’ll see you when you’re back, I’ll be waiting here patiently 😉 xx *picture*

I have such a sexy fucking girlfriend. She sent me a picture of her in bed naked touching herself. It’s got me in 2 minds about leaving or not. But I’m not that person, if I had known Sophie wasn’t safe I wouldn’t have left it this long, but I know now she’s out there, probably terrified and drenched from the rain. I need to find her. I start to walk towards Steve’s house but it becomes clear quite quickly that this isn’t going to be easy. I’ve walked 10, maybe 15 minutes so far and no sign of her. How am I meant to find anyone in this rain? She could be anywhere. I can’t see 2 foot in front of me either, this is far too heavy.

“Sophie! Sophie can you hear me? Sophie please if you can hear me call out!” Still nothing. I see car lights in the distance, I wave it over for some help, they slightly crack their window. “Hi I’m so sorry but have you saw a woman by herself anywhere? I can’t find my friend and I’m so worried.”

“I don’t know if it’s a woman or not, but there is someone a couple of minutes back there sitting on a bench, but they have a big coat on so I couldn’t see much. Do you want me to ring the police?”

“No it’s fine, she had a bit too much to drink is all. But thank you so much I really appreciate it!”

Please let this be Sophie. I recognise where I am, it’s about halfway to Steve’s house so if this is her then I can help her get back safe and then I can get back to Zoe.

“Sophie!”

I can see the figure on the bench, but I’m not getting a response, so maybe it’s not her. Maybe the person in the car was right. Maybe this is a job for the police, she could have taken one wrong turn and been in real danger but I was too busy getting fucked to care. I honestly would never forgive myself if anything happened to her. I walk closer and it’s definitely her. I know those eye’s too well. She’s shivering in a big puffy coat that’s definitely not kept her dry at all, I would even say it’s made it worse it looks like it’s just absorbed all the rain. I give her a gentle nudge.

“Sophie, it’s Hannah, come on we need to get you into heat before you get sick.” She looks up at me, I can’t tell if she’s still crying or if it’s just the rain. “Sophie, please come on, you must be so cold, we need to get you back, you can be out here, especially drunk it’s not safe.”

“I’m not drunk anymore Hannah. I sobered up about an hour after you hung up on me. I’ve just been sitting here since.” She looks away from me “You choose her Hannah. I’ve been sitting here thinking about the fact that you choose her.”

“I didn’t ‘chose’ her Sophie. I’ve been with her for the past month, the same way you’ve been with Alan. You can’t just decide now you suddenly wanted me just because I’m with someone else! It doesn’t work that way!”

“That’s fucking bullshit Hannah!” She stands up and is screaming in my face, rain is pouring down on us. “I wanted you from the moment I saw you! I was just scared because I’ve never felt a feeling like that before about a woman! I’ve never even felt that way before about a man! It fucking terrified me Hannah and I just needed time!”

“Well it’s too late! What did you expect me to do Sophie? Did you expect me to wait for you, until you decide you were ready for another one night stand? Until you were ready to use me again and then jump right back to Alan?” She turned away from me and started walking away, back towards Steve’s.

“Fuck you Hannah. If that’s what you think you can fuck off!!!” I start walking after her.

“What else am I going to think Sophie! We’ve been friends for over a month now, we text every single day and not once have you shown any interest in us being more!”

She stops dead in her tracks and just stands in the middle of the road. I don’t know what she’s about to do so I stop too, after all Alan got a bottle thrown at him when he pissed her off. After a couple of minutes she turns to look at me. She looks so angry. She starts to walk towards me.

“Is that really what you think? We text every day because I think about you every day. Why do you think I send you a good morning text and a good night text? It’s because you’re the first person I think about when I wake up and the last person before I fall asleep!” She stops about 1 foot away from me. “I haven’t been able to show interest in you because every time I ask you to come hang out you say no!”

“Because I didn’t want to see you and Alan together!”

“We’re not fucking together Hannah! Your fucking cousin has been trying to push him on me so him and Clare can spend time together and every time he makes a move, I tell him to fuck off. I don’t fucking want him I haven’t wanted him even when I slept with him. I did that because I was fucking terrified of the way I felt about you and I wanted it to go away and stop. But it never stopped Hannah! I fucking want you and only you!”

Holy shit. Sophies genuinely not with Alan and hasn’t been with him either. I thought that she was asking me to hang with them as a friend and just didn’t understand that I would feel uncomfortable. I never considered the fact that she actually wanted to hang out with me to be closer to me. Again though, this isn’t my fault, none of it is.

“That still doesn’t change the fact that you haven’t mentioned a single thing about how you’ve felt this whole time! You had plenty of chances to tell me that you were sorry, that you take what you said back! It really fucking hurt when you told me to forget it ever happened so I did what you asked! I forgot and I moved on to someone who actually wants me!” She throws her hands up in the air and starts walking away again.

“Forget it Hannah! Go back to your perfect little fucking girlfriend!” I start to follow her yet again.

“See that’s your fucking problem Sophie. Instead of facing the truth you walk away. You throw your hands in the air and surrender. You only have yourself to blame for this. You should have told me! Sophie! Fucking stop!” I grab her shoulder and turn her around. “You should have fucking told me!”

“What was I meant to say Hannah?! You wouldn’t see me face to face so what was my next option? Send you a quick good morning text? Morning Hannah, really nice day today isn’t it? P.s I think I’m falling in love with you.” Her eyes widened. “Shit. I didn’t mean to say it like that. Just fucking forget it Hannah!” She tries to walk away again but I grab her arm.

“What did you just say?” My heart, I can feel it beating out of my chest.

“Nothing. I didn’t say anything, it doesn’t fucking matter.”

“You said you love me?”

“No, what I said was. I said forget it Hannah” Just like before I can’t tell if she’s crying or if it’s the rain hitting her face. I reach out and clear her hair from her face and wipe under her eyes. I think it’s safe to assume with everything that’s happened in the past few hours and everything she’s saying that they’re tears and not the rain,

“Why are you crying?”

“It doesn’t matter what I said Hannah. None of it matters anymore. I’ve lost yo.u” my hand was still wiping her tears until she rested her cheek into it. I have to pull it away before temptation to pull her in for a kiss kicks in.

“Sophie, please let me get you home, I wouldn’t forgive myself if something happened to you.” She’s looking at me again, it’s so clear now that she’s crying, all I can do is pull her in for a hug. I wrap my arms around her waist to pull her in and her head’s resting on my shoulder with her arms holding around my neck “Please Sophie, don’t cry, it’s okay.”

“It’s not okay! Just because it took me a couple of days to come to terms with being with you, I’ve lost you all together.” Her cries get louder. I pull back to look at her.

“Hey, hey, hey, I’m still here Sophie, you’ve got me right here. Calm down just calm down.”

Her brown eyes are back on mine. I know I’m in trouble. She pulls me in closer and gently pecks my lips. She pulls back to look at me to see my reaction. I don’t know what to do or how to react, yes I wanted Sophie, a month ago this would have made me so happy, but I’m with someone else now. She comes in closer again, and puts her forehead and nose against mine and closes her eyes.

“Hannah?”

“Yes Soph?” She opens her eyes and looks deep into mine. She inhales deeply.

“I love you” my heart stopped. “I think I knew I loved you the second I saw you watching me walk over to you for the first time. When I looked into your eyes, it was like I could see into your soul. I never believed in love at first sight Hannah, because every guy I ever laid eyes on barely gave me anything to think about. But I realise now, I was just waiting for you to come along. I was just too scared to admit it before. Hannah. I’m so head over heels in love with you.”

She gave me the gentlest kiss, I think it was to see if I would respond to her lips. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. I was genuinely so froze, and not because of the torrential rain, well maybe that is a factor, but froze out of shock.

“Sophie. I really. I don’t know. I can’t get the words out.”

“I understand that you don’t know what to say, or do, or if you believe me or if you can trust me. But it’s you Hannah. I want you. I love you. I know you want me too Hannah, if you didn’t you wouldn’t have avoided potentially seeing me with someone else. You were right before though I need to get back to Steve’s. Are you going to walk me?”

Words still wouldn’t leave my mouth so I just nodded, so for 15 minutes me and Sophie walked in silence. How the fuck can I get out of this one? Do I love Sophie? Is that why it hurt so much when she chucked me to the side, is that why I avoided telling her about Zoe because I was holding onto hope that she would come back to me? I’m so confused.

When we finally get back to Steve’s the house is basically empty apart from a few stragglers, Sophie’s standing behind me holding my arm as if she’s scared, or embarrassed by what she did before she left. I turn my head slightly to look at her, and she looks absolutely terrified.

“Sophie what the fuck!?” I hear Clare’s horrid voice screech. “What the fuck are you playing at?! I’ve been sitting here so worried about you! What the hell were you doing?”

“Fuck off Clare, if you were so scared you would have been looking for me yourself not here downing drinks. Let’s go Hannah I have clothes upstairs that you can get into and then I’ll get you a taxi.”

Clare’s chin nearly hits the floor, she never expected Sophie to talk back to her like that, either did I actually, it was really hot she’s got a bit of fire in her. She leads me upstairs to the room on the third floor. The room that we spent the night in embracing each other, also the room that she broke my heart in when she was with the ogre. She takes out a key and unlocks it.

“So, I guess this is your room now that you’ve marked your territory?” She gives me an evil glare and she throws some clothes at me. “Sorry that was uncalled for.”

“When we stay here Steve said this is my room so he gave me a key to make sure no one passes out in it while we party.” We’re just standing looking at each other. “Go on then, get out of those wet clothes and I’ll ring a taxi for you” She’s got her hard shell back on, bitch Sophie is back.

“Okay well turn around then so I can get changed.” She lets out a childish ‘tut’ and turns around. I get the wet clothes off me and put her clothes on, they smell like her. That sweet perfume that brings me back to that night. “Okay I’m ready.” I turn back to her, she’s thumbling through the nightstand.

“I need to charge my phone, it’s dead, then I’ll ring you a taxi. Does your phone have any battery so you can just do it?” She’s not paying attention to me so I glance at my phone.

Zoe — Baby I’m falling asleep but that weather is far too scary. When you get to Steve’s please stay there it’s not safe outside. I’ll get you in the morning xx

Me — Just got here babe, I’ll stay on his sofa, see you in the morning xx

With all of this shit going on I completely forgot that I told Zoe I would be back soon, she’s such a sweet, caring, loving person and I feel so guilty for what I’m about to do but I need to buy some time, Sophie and I need to talk. I still want her in my life, as a friend, but if we leave it like this I’m scared she’ll cut herself out of my life completely. So I turn my phone off.

“Nope, battery’s dead”

“Fucking wonderful” she turns around and rolls her eyes “Right well I’m going to get out of these clothes, why don’t you go and ask Steve to ring you one?” She’s really trying to get rid of me.

“Can we not talk a bit first? After all of that you just want me to fuck off and pretend it never happened? Again?”

“What is there to say Hannah? I told you how I feel, you said nothing back. Your silence was deafening.”

“I was surprised Sophie, I thought that you hated the thought of being with me, so it came as a massive shock that you actually loved the thought of being with me!” She rolled her eyes again and did some sort of motion with her hand as if to say turn around. I just looked at her. “What?”

“Well turn around then so I can get changed.” She said it in a mocking way. She is such a child when she doesn’t get what she wants. But why was it turning me on? Stop it Hannah! You have a girlfriend. Stay in control!

“Sorry.” I turn around towards the door and I hear the sound of her wet clothes hit the floor. “So you really just want to leave it like that? You don’t even want to be friends anymore?” I hear her moving about behind me, and can sense her getting closer. “Sophie?” I feel a soft, cold kiss on the back of my neck. It sends shivers up my spine.

“No, I don’t want to be friends. I already told you earlier Hannah, I want to be yours” She kisses my neck again.

“Stop it Sophie.” barely even a whisper. “We can’t do this.” she slowly moves her hands around to my stomach and reaches up my tank top. “Sophie.” I can feel my face getting warmer, her cold fingers are pinching at my nipples, causing my head to fall back onto her shoulder.

“Last time we were in this room together, I asked you to stop.” She’s got full access to my neck now and gives it a gentle lick. “I’ve never regretted something so much in my life Hannah, every night since I’ve wished by some sort of miracle to go back to that night and just give myself to you. Just to be able to go back and let you take full control of my body.” She’s at my ear again. She knows it’s my weakness. “Do you really want me to stop, do you want to live with the same regret?” she nibbles at my ear.

“Oh fuck, I can’t Sophie.” more de-ja-vu, she takes one of her hands off my nipple and slowly locks the door. She takes out the key and puts it in my hand. “This is wrong Sophie. I have a girlfriend” I can feel her wet, naked body push up against my back.

“Choice is yours Hannah, you have the key, if you want to leave you can” I’m so wet, I can feel my clit throbbing. “But we both know you want to stay, otherwise you wouldn’t have pretended your phone was dead.” Shit, I thought I got away with that. I feel her moving her hand behind me, she reaches up and sticks her finger in my mouth. I recognise that taste from the day in the games room, it’s so sweet and addictive. I suck it dry and let out a moan. “Don’t you want to finish what you started?”

“You’re making this so hard Soph. Please. I can’t.”

I’m on the edge of giving in. My will power is running out. Just when I can’t take anymore, she spins me around and my back is against the door. She’s naked from head to toe, I take her all in. Her hair is drowned from the rain and it’s causing water to slowly trinkle down her body, outlining every curve and dimple. Her nipples are rock hard and I can see her trembling slightly. I look back up to those deep brown eyes.

Although when I was facing the door, she sounded so confident in what she was doing and saying. Now though, looking at her, I can see she scared, she’s vulnerable. I really don’t want to hurt her, but I know this isn’t right. I’m not going to hurt Zoe and I’m not going to take advantage of Soph while she’s clearly vulnerable.

“So Hannah, what’s it going to be?”

I put my hands up to her face and pull her towards me, but I plant a small kiss on her forehead. She looks at me and I can see the pain. She knows I’m not going to let this happen, I can see the disappointment in her eye’s, I know that feeling it’s the same feeling I had the night she blew me off for Alan.

“Sophie.” She backs away and grabs her robe and wraps around her and sits on the bed. “I’m not a cheater, I can’t do this while I’m in a relationship, and I’m not going to break up with her.” She can’t even look at me. I sit down beside her. “I’m not the type of person to drop someone when I potentially have someone else. I like Zoe, I want to see how that goes.”

“But you like me too? Why can’t it be me, I can give you everything she can, I promise, please just give me that chance!”

“I made a commitment Sophie, I’m not going to go back on that. And you’re not ready for this either.”

“Yes, I am!” Those big brown eyes are looking right at me, begging me to pick her.

“Soph, do you think you’re really ready to show the world that you’re gay?”

“I’m not gay! I’m straight! But, but you’re different, you’re special!” I knew she wasn’t ready.

“One day you’ll be ready, but that’s not today. And when you are, you’re going to make someone very happy, and if I’m single hit me up” she lets out a giggle but at the same time she’s still sobbing.

“Can you please stay with me? I won’t do anything; I promise I just don’t want to be alone.” She squeezes my hand so gently “Please…”

“Sure I’ll stay.”

We both climb into bed, her back is to me, I’m just staring at the ceiling trying to take in everything that’s happened tonight but I can hear her sobbing. I try to ignore it but I can’t, I turn to her, wrap my arms around and pull her in for a cuddle.

“Go to sleep Soph, I’ll be right here” I give her a big squeeze. It just makes her worse, her cries are louder now.

“I can’t lose you, please still be my friend, still talk to me, I’ll control myself, please don’t leave me.”

“Don’t worry, I’m still going to be here for you, just go to sleep babe, you need to sleep.”

“But I’m scared Hannah.”

What are you scared of?”

“I’m scared that I’ll wake up and you’ll be gone, and because of tonight you won’t want to have anything to do with me. I’m sorry Hannah, I needed to tell you how I felt.”

“Soph, I promise you I’ll be here, I’ll still be your friend. I’m glad you told me how you feel, it means I know there are boundaries and I know to be considerate of your feelings when it comes to me and Zoe, but don’t ever think it would be a reason for me to stop talking to you.”

“Are you sure?”

“I’m sure Soph. I think you really need to get some sleep though.”

“Okay, night night Hannah. I love you.”

I didn’t respond what could I possibly say to that? Within a few minutes she was asleep in my arms while I held her tight. I know this isn’t the smartest thing I could have done, sofa probably would have been ideal, but she’s my friend and she needed me here to comfort her. Despite what she feels for me I won’t treat her any different.

I turn my phone back on to make sure I can hear it in the morning when Zoe’s here and also make sure to send a quick text to let her know I’m thinking of her before I sleep.

Me — That’s me going to sleep now babe. I can’t wait to see you tomorrow, we’ll spend the whole day together I promise xx

Why is this happening to me? When I was single no one wanted me for anything other than a one night stand, now I’m with someone who cares about me and I care for too, this happens. I just need to get a good night sleep and everything will be just fine in the morning.

I wake up to my phone ringing, 9am, Jesus it’s early. Sophie’s still beside me but after how much she drank last night I doubt an earthquake would wake her. She looks so peaceful. I carefully reach for my phone and whisper to try to make sure I don’t wake Soph.

“Hello?”

“Hey babe! Me, Jen and Bex are on our way to get you we should be there in 5 minutes get your ass out here.”

“Okay baby, just getting up now.”

“See you shortly!”

I try to slowly get out of bed trying not to Sophie. Apparently I was wrong about the earthquake, all it took was a single movement from me trying to leave bet to wake her up, she grabs me and tries to pull me back.

“Where are you going? I want more cuddles.”

“Sorry Soph, I need to go my lifts going to be here in a minute” She jolts up.

“You mean your girlfriend?” There’s that pissed off look again.

“Yes, her and Jen and her friend Bex, I need to go, but I’ll text you tomorrow I promise.”

“Tomorrow? Why not today?” She looked genuinely saddened at the thought of not hearing from me today.

“I promised Zoe I would spend the day just us. I did leave her in a strangers house last night to come to you.”

“Fine. Promise you’ll text me tomorrow? Please?”

“Of course I will” she stands up and wraps her arms around me and gives me a massive hug. It lasts longer than it should have, and that perfume, that perfumes drove me crazy from the first time I smelt it. She lets go and looks at me.

“Thank you for last night. I’m sorry I made things hard for you. But I promise I’ll wait for you, I’ll wait for you to come back to me.” She tries to kiss me but I move my face so she only catches my cheek. “Sorry, had to try one last time, god loves a trier” A guilty smirk crosses her face. My phone rings again, it’s Zoe, Soph sees her name and lets out a grunt.

“Sorry I’ve got to go Soph, take it easy today okay? We’ll talk tomorrow.”

I leave the room and quickly run down the stairs, Steve tries to say something to me but I bolt out the door and jump straight into the backseat of the car to Zoe.

“Hey baby I mi..” I cut her off by pulling her in for a deep kiss. I needed to feel her lips on mine. I just needed to let some of this frustration out.

“Excuse me! Other people in the car, we don’t need to see the start of a live action porno!” I forgot for a second Jen was here.

“Sorry Jen. Bex thanks so much for getting me.”

“It’s fine” I can see her smile in her mirror.

“So, what the fuck happened last night, fill me in on the drama. Who went missing?” Of course Jen wants to know, I guarantee she wanted to ask the second I opened the car door.

“No drama. Sophie got lost, she was drunk and went for a walk and couldn’t find her way back.” I’m planning on telling Zoe the full story. But not right now in front of 2 people she barely knows.

“Sophie? As in the Sophie?!” Oh fuck. What did she have to say it like that.

“What does she mean ‘the Sophie’ Hannah? Is that the angry girl from last night?” Zoe looks genuinely confused.

“Yes, the angry girl, I’m too tired to go over it all right now, I’ll fill you all in when we get back to Jens and have coffee I am knackered!”

“We’re not going back to Jens baby, we’re going to my house, our stuffs there and we have plans today.” She slowly moves her hands up my thigh and grazes my pussy and throws in a wink for good measure. I wonder if we’ll still have plans after I tell her about last night.

“Okay babe, Jen I’ll ring you later and fill you in then.” she crosses her arms and groans. Such a baby sometimes. I feel my phone vibrate, I can already guess who it’s going to be, especially since 2 out of the 3 people I talk to are currently in the same car as me.

Sophie — Hey. So, I just want to let you know that I really do appreciate what you did last night and I’m not angry that you turned me down. If anything, it makes me love you more for not taking advantage of me when I was vulnerable. If I can’t have you as my girlfriend, I still want you as my friend I can’t lose you completely. But yeah, don’t really have anything else to say, have a good day x

Got to be honest, I was expecting something a little more along the lines of ‘forget it ever happened’ or ‘go fuck yourself’ that was the common trend with Sophie after all but I guess she meant it when she said she knows what she wants now.

Me — As long as you’re okay that’s the main thing. Of course we can still be friends, you too Soph. x

“Thanks again for letting me stay Jen, and thanks for bringing us back Bex it was really nice to meet you both.” I was so in my head I didn’t even notice we’re already back at Zoe’s.

“Anytime Zozo! And call me.. Enjoy your quality time” she gives us a wink “and don’t forget to ring me later to tell me all the drama of last night Hannah!”

“I won’t forget I’m sure you’ll be torturing me enough so I can’t! See you both later.”

Zoe is dragging me into her house as fast as she can, the same way she did last night, I know where she’s wanting this to go, but I need to tell her what happened first. As soon as she closes her front door she grabs the back of my neck and kisses me and starts pulling at the tank top I’m wearing to get it off me.

“I had dreams about your moans last night, from the second I woke up I just needed to hear you begging me to let you cum.” I gently push her off me.

“Baby, slow down. We need to talk first” Within seconds her eyes changed from horny to worried.

“Talk about what? Have I done something wrong? Whatever I did I’m sorry.”

“No don’t worry you did nothing wrong, it’s about last night. About Sophie. Can we sit?” Again, the way she’s looking at me changed, from worried to angry.

“I don’t want to sit. What the fuck did you do? Did you kiss her? Fuck her? What happened Hannah?” She’s furious!

“No baby, nothing like that! Well, not last night, but before I met you, I did sleep with her but it was a one-time thing nothing more.”

“Oh great! So that’s why she was a complete bitch last night. Makes sense now, you broke her heart and took me to a party to flaunt your new piece in front of your old one?”

“No! Jesus no! Please it’s not like that at all! Please just listen!” She closes her eyes took a deep breath. “We didn’t sleep together, and I didn’t kiss her. Please, sit down so I can talk to you.” Finally she sits down.

“Okay, sorry it’s just that I’ve been cheated on before so the worst case scenario popped into my head. But as long as I know that you didn’t do anything I’m fine. What happened?”

“So, before I tell you, I just want to make clear again. I have slept with Sophie. But before I even knew who you were, and I didn’t break her heart. She told me she was straight and she regretted it and we became friends after that, so there has been absolutely nothing going on between me and Sophie.” Zoe lets out a sign of relief. “And I didn’t kiss her,”

“Then what happened? Why are you being so serious right now if nothing happened?”

“I said that I didn’t kiss her Zoe, but she did kiss me.” time to re-live last night’s events.

 

Chapter 2

 

“I’ll fucking kill her! Who the fuck does she think she is the desperate bitch!” Just have to remind myself that I did the right thing by telling her, no matter how angry she is right now.

“Babe calm down, nothing happened I said no! I wouldn’t do that to you, I would never do anything to hurt you!” She stands up to walk away so I grab her arm to try to get her to look at me but she grabs my wrist so tight it feels like she’s going to break it.

“Nothing happened? Nothing fucking happened? You slept and cuddled in the same bed of a girl who tried to seduce you minutes before while I lay in your best friend’s house worried sick about you and you call that nothing?”

“Zoe, you’re hurting me. Let go!” She hesitates for a moment and then releases her grip she’s shaking and I don’t think it’s out of anger anymore. “Jesus Zoe that really fucking hurt.”

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry I shouldn’t have squeezed that hard.” She collapses back onto the sofa and puts her head in her hands and starts crying. “I’m sorry I didn’t know I was hurting you, I really didn’t.” I sit down beside her and pull her into me.

“It’s fine, it was an accident, please don’t cry babe, you didn’t hurt me on purpose It’s okay.” I squeeze her tighter.

“Maybe Sophie was right, maybe you should be with her, she wouldn’t hurt you like that.”

“Shut up, she wasn’t right! I don’t want her, I want you! You didn’t mean to hurt me stop panicking accidents happen babe, emotions are high right now.” I feel awful that she’s feeling this way, that she even thinks I don’t want to be with her.

“Hannah? I need to ask you to do something for me.”

“Anything! What is it and I’ll do it!”

“I need you to stop speaking to Sophie. I can’t handle the thought of you and her. I can’t get it out of my head and if you’re still speaking to her that’s all I’ll ever think about. I can’t be in a relationship where I’m constantly paranoid about what she’s saying to you or if she’s trying to seduce you any chance she gets.”

Shit. I told Sophie I wasn’t going anywhere, that I would still be there for her and be her friend. Now I have to either go back on what I told Sophie or tell my girlfriend that I’m not willing to stop talking to the girl who tried to get me to cheat on her. I know what the right choice is, but it doesn’t make it any easier. I really like talking to Sophie, she makes me laugh and she gets me. At the same time if I keep talking to her it’s going to makes things harder for her, I would have to avoid talking about me and Zoe just to spare her feelings which isn’t really a friendship is it?

“Okay. I’ll stop talking to her.”

“Really? Do you promise? I don’t want to sound controlling but if we’re going to move forward you’re going to need to leave her behind.”

“I know, I’ll tell her tomorrow that I can’t talk to her anymore, I promise.”

“No. Do it now Hannah. I need to trust you, and this will show me I can. Text her.”

“What am I going to say to her though?”

“Give me your phone, you’re not a child Hannah. I’ll send it.” She snatches my phone from me.

“I want to see it before you send it Zoe, I don’t want to hurt anyone”

“Yeah, whatever, shut up I’m typing” How was she crying a matter of seconds ago and now she’s back to being angry, is it normal for someone to flip from one emotion to another so quickly? Why Is she taking so long, Is she writing an essay? “There you go, sent!”

“You sent it? I said I wanted to see before you sent it!”

“Tough shit Hannah.”

She throws the phone at me and gets off the sofa and goes upstairs. I never expected her to be this way, I understand she feels hurt and insecure but she’s usually so sweet. Today I’m seeing her angry and jealous side for the first time, and if I’m going to be honest, it’s scaring me a little. It’s not the Zoe I’ve got to know. I have a look at my phone to see what Zoe text Soph.

Me (well Zoe) — What happened last night will never happen again. I don’t love you. I don’t want you. I want Zoe. Sleeping with you before was just a bit of fun and nothing more. Why would I want to be with some straight girl who has no idea what she wants? Pathetic. Don’t reply to me, delete my number and If you see me don’t talk to me. Pretend you don’t know me because I’ll be looking right through you like you never existed.

Holy fuck, she went in on her. I can’t blame her, if the roles were reversed, I would be pissed off too. I need to react to this in the right way though, inside I’m furious that she sent it without showing me but at the same time I understand it’s because she’s hurt. I’m just going to hide the furious because if I show her I care what she said she’ll question my feelings for Sophie so I’ll act as if I’m okay with how harsh she was, it will build back her trust.

While I let Zoe calm down upstairs, I guess I’ll ring Jen and let her know what happened, I guarantee she’s been waiting with her phone in her hand since they dropped us off to find out what happened.

“Hey bitch! Give me all the deets!!”

“Jen.. it’s bad..”

“Oh shit. What did you do?”

I take my time explaining to Jen what happened the night before. Jen will always be honest with me. She’s not the type of friend who will just tell me what I want to hear, she tells me what I need to hear. She doesn’t say much while I’m explaining what happened, just a few gasps but she lets me unload it all on her and when I’m finished she finally speaks.

“Okay. That’s a lot. So, I think you already know this but you’re a fucking idiot and I completely agree with how Zoe reacted, apart from grabbing your wrist but clearly that was an accident. What the fuck were you thinking Hannah?”

“I know! I’m an idiot and I should never have stayed there, I should have just got her back safe and went back to yours. I just needed answers Jen.”

“Why did you need the answers though? If you’re happy with Zoe surely you don’t need to know how someone else feels for you, unless you’re not happy with Zoe?”

“I am happy! Curiosity just took over me Jen and now Zoe is really fucked off with me!”

“Again Hannah, I don’t blame her, if Bex did that to me she’d be out on her ass no questions asked, you’re lucky she gave you the time of day. You’ve got a lot of trust to build back. So if it’s Zoe you want to be with go and fix it, if it’s Sophie end it now.”

“It’s not Sophie, it’s Zoe. Thank you for being honest with me Jen.”

“That’s what I’m here for, now hurry up. Go fix the shitstorm you’ve created and I’ll catch up with you later! Bye!”

“Bye Jen.”

I know Jen’s right, she always is. It’s time for me to bite the bullet and fix this mess. I’m a bit scared if I’m going to be honest, not of what Zoe is going to do because I’m sure she’s not going to hurt me, but what she’ll say. I’m not used to being in a relationship and I think that’s very clear by how I acted. I go upstairs and I knock on Zoe’s bedroom door before I go in, just to make sure it’s safe.

“You don’t need to knock just come in.” She doesn’t sound like she’s cheered up at all but I walk on it and she’s lying on the bed on her phone. “Finally done with your precious phone call? Let me guess you were on the phone to that bitch telling her I sent the text?”

“No actually, I was just on the phone to Jen, I thought I’d give you a bit of space.” I close the door and sit as far away on the bed as I can from Zoe.

“Sure. So what did you text the slut as a follow up?”

“I didn’t text her?” She sits up looking surprised.

“You didn’t?”

“No, I told you I wouldn’t talk to her again, your text said it all.”

“Oh. I.. I thought you were going to be pissed at what I said.”

“Not at all babe.” I shimmy up so I’m sitting beside her and slowly take her hand. “You had every right to send it, saved me the bother.” I give her a sly smile and she smiles back at me. I think I’m getting back in the good books.

“Sorry I flipped out. I have trouble holding back when I’m hurt. I promise I’ll try better, you didn’t deserve that.” She gently strokes my wrist where she had hurt it. “Does it still hurt?”

“Yeah, a little, but it’s okay, you didn’t mean it.”

“I guess that means your hand is out of action?” Another mood switch, she’s giving me a mischievous smile and grabs my hand and gently kisses it. “I really need to make this up to you.”

I don’t get this girl; she’s went through so many different feelings in the past hour and they’ve switched so quickly. Horny, worried, angry, sad, bitchy, apologetic and now back to horny. I like the horny though. I really like the horny.

“Now that you mention it actually, it’s actually really, really sore.” I grab her hoodie and pull her closer. “I think we might have to spend all day in bed just to make sure I don’t overdo anything.” I nibble at her bottom lip and small moan escapes her.

“I think I need to distract you from the pain baby” She wraps one arm around me holding onto me by the small of my back and uses her other arm to keep her upright. She lifts me slightly and slides me down the bed while climbing on top of me at the same time. “Nurse you back to health maybe?” Her hand is playing with the strings of my shorts and, I think purposely, she’s letting one of her fingers glide over where my clit is.

“Yes please!” I try to kiss her but she pulls away.

“Begging already? You know how much that turns me on.” She kisses the corner of my mouth and now her fingers are playing with the elastic of my shorts tickling the bottom of my stomach. “I think I’m going to need to hear a lot more of that before I distract you from your pain.”

“You’re not going to get it, you got to be boss last night I can’t let that happen again.” It’s going to happen again, I know it is, but I can’t give in that easy.

“One thing you’re going to learn is..” She starts rubbing my clit from outside my shorts. “When it comes to sex I’m always boss.” she kisses me hard and her warm tongue enters my mouth. She’s rubbing my clit harder now. The feeling of the fabric is driving me crazy!

“Is that all that you’ve got?” I bite her bottom lip and pull back, I stare deep into those angry eyes, she doesn’t like when I talk back.

“I haven’t even started.” She stops rubbing my clit and I try to hold back the disappointment but I let out a small gasp. “Really? You can’t handle me stopping at that? You’re really not going to be able to hold back begging when I show you what I’ve got in store for you.” She pulls my tank top off and In one pull takes both her hoodie and t-shirt off, leaving both of us revealing our breasts to each other.

I try to reach for hers to tease her nipples but she slaps my hand away and comes down to my ear. “Don’t want to over work your hand baby, remember?” I feel her warm tongue lick the bottom of my earlobe and down my neck. This time I let out a loud moan. “You’re too easy babe tell me how much you want it.” She’s kissing my neck now and I have a handful of her hair in my hands pulling it out of frustration.

“Make me.. bitch.” Her eyes jolt to mine and I think she sees red. She really doesn’t like it when she doesn’t get what she wants.

“Fuck you.” She stands up and walks towards drawers on the other side of the room, she pulls out three black scarfs. “You leave me with no choice. I had big plans last night, plans that would have been revealed over a number of hours.” She looks so fucking sexy right now, I’ll never tell her, but I definitely like it when she’s in control. “But our night got cut short, guess I’ll just need to make up for lost time.”

She’s fiddling with the scarfs and walking slowly back towards the bed. She climbs on top of me and brings her lips to mine, touching ever so slightly, she gives me a gentle, sensual kiss and then I feel her grab my hand. She pulls it up to the headboard and starts to tie it around the metal railing.

“What are you doing?”

No one has ever tied me up before. But me and Zoe made it a point to talk about our likes and dislikes when it came to sex. She already told me that she likes tying up, blindfolds, strap-on’s, things like that. I was very straight to the point when it came to sex, but I told her I’d be willing to try anything, so I’m excited to try something new. Especially with her.

“You said I’m the bitch?” She grabs my other hand and does the same thing. I’m now lying there vulnerable with my hands tied above my head. “Let’s see who’s the bitch when you can’t even touch me. I can’t wait to hear you beg for me to fuck you, to kiss you, to touch you. Watching you squirm with no control is going to be heaven.” She comes close to me again as if to give me a kiss, I try to lift up towards her but I can’t with my hands tied up. The sexiest smile escapes her lips. “No kissing just yet baby, you haven’t earned it.” And like that she ties the third scarf around my eyes and I’m in darkness. “If you want me to stop at any time, just say, I doubt you will though.”

Holy shit, this is fucking hot. I can’t see her or touch her and it is enhancing every other sense. I can smell her shampoo, I can hear her evil giggles, when she kisses me, I can taste her sweet lips more than usual.

“What are you going to do to me?” I don’t know if I’m asking because I’m excited or because I’m scared, but either way all I know is that I’ve never been this turned on before, I think I’ve finally met my match.

“Why would I tell you that baby, it would just spoil the fun.” Her hands are slowly gliding up and down my stomach, every so often up to my breasts to glide over my nipples causing goosebumps to shoot up all over my body. I can feel her moving about on top of me, but I have no idea what she’s doing. I feel something warm and wet around my nipple causing me to jolt and causing my pussy to throb.

“Oh, fuck Zoe!” She’s got my nipple in her mouth, circling it with her tongue and pulling at it with her lips. I remember the motion of that tongue, just thinking about last night could push me to the brink of an orgasm. She’s not talking at all. I think that actually makes it so much hotter because I have no idea what’s going through her head.

She licks from my nipple down to my stomach, grabbing the elastic of my shorts with her teeth and gently tugs at them, but she doesn’t take them off. She then continues to lick and nibble at my thighs. I whole body is tingling, I feel like I’m going to explode!

“Baby no more teasing please, I can’t take it anymore!”

All she does is giggle. Not a cutesy giggle either, more of a ‘Don’t tell me what to do’ vibe. I feel her climb off me and she slowly pulls down my shorts, kissing my legs every inch of the way. This feeling, it’s insane! Did you ever touch an electric fence as a kid for fun, just to see what it would feel like and it sent a jolt through your body that made you feel strange but at the same time really excited? That’s what this feels like. It feels like Zoe is an electric fence sending jolts through my whole body.

Suddenly I can’t feel her on me anymore, not even an accidental touch, I can’t hear her either. “Zoe?” I’m a little concerned that she’s left me here as some sort of sick ‘fuck you’ for last night.

“Shut up. I’m taking all of you in. I can’t wait to have you screaming my name.” She sounds so intense right now, I wish I could just see her eyes, those big blue, mischievous eyes, I can only imagine how sexy they look right now. I hear her thumbling about again, and then I feel her climbing back onto the bed and back onto me. Her hands are now holding mine on the bed board. “Open your mouth and stick out your tongue.”

“Huh?” No response, so I just do as she says. I open my mouth and extend my tongue. I get a sweet taste of her glorious juices in my mouth and she lets out a sexy moan. After a couple of licks, I feel her pull away. “No please, I don’t want to stop!”

“I told you, I’m in charge when it comes to sex, so you get more when you deserve more.”

She gives me a deep passionate kiss, and even though I can hear how in control she is from her voice her kiss gives it away that she wants it just as bad as I do, if not more. She lets go of my hands and climbs back down my body; I can feel her presence over me.

“How bad do you want it baby?”

“I want it so bad, please, please just let me touch you, let me taste you, you’re getting what you want. You wanted me to beg? Here I am, I’m begging you!” Again, there’s that giggle.

“Baby what I want to do is bring you right to the edge, until your whole body is trembling with pleasure and then, just then I want you to tell me how bad you want it, getting what you want isn’t that easy with me. You earn it. Now spread your legs.”

I do as she says, after all she has definitely proven that I’m not going to be the dominant one in this relationship. Within 24 hours she’s managed to turn me into a submissive, I never thought that would ever be possible, but she’s got me eating out of her hand.

“Yes, just like that, nice and slow so I can watch.” I can still feel her presence but she’s still not touching me, I can hear her doing something, but I just don’t know what it is. “Oh, baby I can see how much this is turning you on, do you like being my little bitch?”

“I’m not your bitch” She really doesn’t like back talk but I love how hot and heavy it makes her.

“Don’t talk back to me! I said do you like being my little bitch?” I can feel her touching me again, both of her hands slowly moving up my leg, ever so gently, my body is on fire, my head is spinning, all I want her to do is stick her fingers deep inside me and make my body ache in pleasure. She runs her fingers up through my wet slit and gently starts rubbing my clit.

“Oh, Zoe that feels so good!”

“What it sounds like to me is that you want me to stop?”

“No, please, please for the love of god don’t fucking stop.”

“Then answer my question.” She’s rubbing my clit faster now. “Do you like being my little bitch?”

“Please, please just keep going I can feel it, I’m going to cum!”

“Fine.” She takes her hand away.

“No! Please, I was close, I was so fucking close! Oh my god Zoe just let me cum please!”

With my hands tied up and my eyes covered this is a lot more intense than I’ve ever experienced. She has me wrapped around her little finger, eating right out of her hand. I just want to grab her and pull her right into me for a kiss, but she’s in charge and for now I need to give her what she wants.

“I’m your bitch! I love being your bitch! Please just let me cum Zoe. I need you to let me cum!” I know I can’t see her, but I can just feel the smile she has on her face right now. She’s so twisted, and I love it.

“Was that so hard?”

Her fingers are back on my clit now, I can feel how wet I am this girl literally drives me insane. She starts off slowly again, circling my clit, building up the pleasure again, then she starts to pick up the pace, circling faster and harder. I’m moaning so loud and I can hear her letting out little moans every time I do.

“I’m so fucking close!” I can feel my face overcome with heat, a couple more strokes and I will be in ecstasy. “Zoe! I’m cumming, I’m fucking cumming!”

Just like that my whole body is numb, the orgasm travels up and down my body. I’m screaming with insane pleasure and squirming about the bed as much as I can while still tied up. My natural reaction after I’ve cum is to close my legs because of how sensitive I am.

“Did I tell you to close your legs?”

“Baby I can’t, I need a minute, I’m so sensitive right now.”

“I told you already Hannah, we’ve got to make up on lost time.”

She climbs up to me, again her hands on mine on the headboard. She gives me another deep, hungry kiss. Her tongue swirling inside my mouth. I bite her lip in frustration because all I want to do is grab her and lick that sweet wet pussy. For now, I’m still hers, she’s still in control. I need to wait for my turn.