True Nature

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Fae’s Pov:

“Bite me here. Claim me,” I begged anxiously as I submissively turned my neck for the alpha to own me.

I could feel the swell of his knot joining us together as Cain held me close and my wolf felt almost euphoric over the current peace we were experiencing. The only thing that could make things more perfect would be receiving that bite meant for mates. I’d been bitten several times before, of course, with no lasting permanence, but those times I had not been a willing participant. I did not bite back and I did not feel a lasting connection from it, as they were only for torture. But… things were different now and I needed to fully bond with Cain like I needed air to breath.

Only… my Alpha refused to even look at me. He was actively avoiding any eye contact and he refused to respond as his arms weakened their hold on me. Moments before, he’d been biting his way down my body and now… he was so still he could be frozen.

Then I realized, as pain began to fill my entire body, I was being rejected and it was unbearable. It felt as if a thousand knives had plunged themselves beneath my skin and my stomach twisted, making me feel nauseous. My heart felt broken beyond repair and as though I’d never be happy again, now that this alpha, my alpha, had refused to bond with me.

I knew I’d asked for something special, from an alpha who’d made it very clear that they wanted the single life. I knew I was stupid for asking Cain, specifically, to give me a claiming bite, as he was a client and I was someone’s else’s pet. I also knew that Cain was just using me as practice because I would never hurt his ego and that he wasn’t really mine.

However, my wolf did not know how else to respond to being given a knot and an orgasm during heat. We were always tortured or alone during this period but now a strong, handsome Alpha was inside me, possibly creating life in our womb. What else were we suppose to do? How could my wolf want the wrong thing when it all felt so natural? Unfortunately for me though, facts were facts and this Alpha didn’t want to be tied to me and while my human side could understand, the wolf side of me did not, no matter how I went over things in my head for him.

I realized I was crying only when Cain began to speak, covering us with his scent. Which, I assume, was an attempt to sooth me but it only made things worse and I didn’t hear a single word he said, for I was beyond comfort.

My body suddenly convulsed as I panicked over my situation.

I was locked to this strong alpha and his scent was everywhere! I was being rejected and I couldn’t get away! My wolf tried to convince me into giving in to Cain’s calming scent, wanting to be subdued by the alpha, knowing a knot made movement impossible, but I was too upset to give in.

“Get off of me!” I finally screamed, clawing at his back with my weak fingernails. “I need to go home, at least my owner wants me there.”

It was the most ridiculous thing that I could say, for I knew the moment I got home I’d be beaten, but that sounded preferable to being refused by this alpha. I had no idea what made him so special but I knew I’d never felt such pain before. I wanted to die rather than stay in the alpha’s arms as he rejected me; the alpha that would never be mine.

Cain looked alarmed by my outburst and his strong hands grabbed my wrists and pinned them above my head.

“Fae, stop! Please stop moving! You’re going to hurt yourself,” he begged, wincing as I tried to move my body away.

“Who cares?!” I screamed, twisting myself more and more but to no avail, as Cain was so much stronger than I was, so I continued to yell. “No one will ever love me or save me or have a future with me! I’ll always be slave!” I cried. “You-you probably got me pregnant and you want nothing to do with me! I- I hate my life. Please kill me Alpha. I’d rather die than be rejected by you!”

“Fae, please calm down! I’m serious, you’re going to hurt yourself,” Cain begged with a worried, but guilty, expression in his grey eyes as they met mine.

“No!” I screamed at the top of my lunges, “Let me go!”

“Baby if I move, I will injure you. Please just calm down and the blood flow will go back to normal soon enough.”

“Don’t!” I cried out, shaking my head wildly, “Don’t call me that-”

“Babe please, I’m sorry I knotted-”

“No! I don’t-” I started but then Cain’s voice deepened and his scent became suffocating.

“Enough Fae! Now calm down and let me take care of you!” The Alpha roared in dark tones.

I felt my body still as I surrendered, all fight taken from it. For I couldn’t help but to obey my Alpha.

*****

Exactly one hour and forty-two minutes later, I was seated at Cain’s tiny kitchen table, dressed head to toe in his clothes, with a warm bowl of soup in front of me. I was feeling rather embarrassed for the way I had freaked out earlier and I did not feel worthy of the kind treatment I was currently experiencing. I knew I did not deserve to be fed after such an outburst, as Frank never would have allowed it.

I wondered once more why Cain didn’t want a mate as I rubbed my thumb against the long sleeve of his shirt. From everything I’d observed so far, Cain was clearly meant for someone. The man was practically babying me, like you would a mate, and he seemed to enjoy it. For every time I reacted happily to what he did, his face would practically glow from the approval. It was nice and I wished even more fervently that he had bitten me. I’d love to be his.. and if only he’d give me the chance, I would be the best mate ever! I’d give him so much more than just great sex… but… I knew now that I would never be considered for the real thing. I was only a whore, after all.

I let out a sigh, feeling sorry for myself, when Cain suddenly appeared, back from using the restroom. He seemed more calm than before and even when he stood very close, I could no longer sense his wolf at all, when before his scent had overpowered my poor senses. Now, my own wolf whined at the loss, feeling a new sense of rejection wash over it.

“I’m sorry I went into a rut earlier,” he said sincerely as he took a seat across from me.

I could feel my wolf’s spirits sink even lower… and I couldn’t help but to bow my own head. The Alpha had not only rejected us… he regretted us. I couldn’t stop the self loathing that washed over me but then I became distracted when Cain grabbed my hand.

“Hey,” he said softly as he massaged circles into the side of my hand. “I’m not trying to reject you, remember? You don’t belong to me, little wolf. Frank made that very clear. Don’t you know how much it would hurt for you to be separated from me if we were mates?”

“Couldn’t you buy me?” I asked, feeling like a loser for even suggesting it. Who wanted to buy their mate? It was sick.

“I can’t afford it Fae. It’s just me keeping myself afloat here; I don’t have family or a pack and my wolf hasn’t claimed you as my mate, so I can’t just take you.”

I wanted to ask him more about why he didn’t have a pack, like me, but he had other ideas.

“Are you okay? You don’t feel as warm as before,” he asked, looking nervous as his fingertips brushed against my forehead.

I blushed, feeling as if I were caught in a lie. “Actually…I-I feel like my heat is over,” I admitted. “I don’t feel the cramps, or feverish or the need to be fill-” I stopped myself and blushed, “Um… it’s not important,” I finished lamely.

“Over?” Cain asked incredulously. “I’ve never heard of a heat being over right after starting. Should we see a doctor?”

“Well… I read that it can happen if the,” I blushed deeper, “Omega gets pregnant… or a deeply traumatic event has occurred.” I looked away as I spoke, not wanting to make the alpha feel guilty for either possibility as a reason for my bodies response.

“If you’re pregnant… I’ll take care of it, before Frank finds out,” Cain promised.

My wolf felt dead inside at hearing the alpha’s words, for now we’d been rejected in every way possible, but I quietly nodded in agreement. Cain’s way would probably be safer for everyone. Frank would never let the pup live, if I was indeed pregnant, but he would use the situation to torture me more.

“Am I going back in the morning?” I asked dejectedly, while I fiddled with my soup spoon.

“No,” Cain answered and I looked up at him, not understanding.

“Master Frank said one night,” I told him, feeling confused.

“Yes but I called him and told him about you going into heat. I get you for the week.”

“I’m going to be in so much trouble,” I groaned, as I let my head drop into my hands.

“Listen pup, there’s no sense in going back any sooner than planned. If you do, he’ll figure something went wrong and then I won’t be able to help.”

I didn’t look up to nod at him. The weight of the last several hours was crushing me. I felt exhausted and drained and even though, at the beginning of the night, I would have been thrilled at the thought of spending all week with Cain, it now seemed like yet another a form of torture in the cycle of my existence. My wolf felt tied to this alpha in a way that I couldn’t understand but with every longing cry he gave, I silenced him with the truth. Alpha didn’t want us. Alpha didn’t need us. We would never belong to Alpha.

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Cain’s Pov:

You’re fucking everything up, I thought to myself as I looked over the table at the poor little omega across from me. I knew the boy had to be starving but he made no further attempt to eat anything. Instead he cradled his head in his hands, looking beyond defeated. I didn’t know what to do. I only knew that every word out of my mouth, since I’d refused to bite him, had injured him. I could taste his sorrow in the air even now… although it had gotten significantly worse since I’d mentioned taking care of a possible pregnancy.

I wished I could make Fae understand… the domestic type of life, with a mate and pups, wasn’t something that I trusted, and if I couldn’t trust it then I didn’t want it.

“You’re nothing like your father,” the thought of my mother speaking to me came into my mind, uninvited.

True, I was different. I was my father’s disappointment, so how could I be like him? Except… except that we were both Alphas. Which meant that if I mated with an omega, I’d never be my own person again.

My wolf growled at me for thinking this way, just as he had been ever since Fae got here. Although I’d taken the time to up my dosage on my medication, my wolf still seemed to be completely smitten with the boy and difficult for me to control. I was almost relieved that I would no longer have to deal with his heat, except that it meant that I might have gotten the boy pregnant…. or traumatized him.

I mentally shook my head, dwelling on what may have happened wouldn’t do either of us any good right now. Besides, I could tell that Fae’s wolf was becoming depressed. I could barely feel its presence now, when hours ago it was all I could feel, and the pain the boy had been emitting recently was intense. I had to cheer him up. My mother would probably have been ashamed of me thus far, but if I left Fae in this mindset, she’d roll over in her grave.

I reached out for his hand once more, hating myself for how intimate the action was, when I’d fully rejected the poor omega only a couple hours before. The boy let me take his hand, although I knew he probably didn’t have it in him to object.

“Fae… I’m sorry… but hey, just because we aren’t mates doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy your time here. I bet you’ve never had a break before… well, now you can.”

The boy looked up at this, confusion written all over in his green eyes as his voice cracked with sorrow. “What do you mean a break? A-are you done fucking me?”

How the fuck was I still making things worse? I asked myself as I took in the omega’s crushed expression.

“Well.. I mean… I don’t know if that’s a good idea but if you want me too… Um… fuck you again… I mean I will… If that’s what you want.” I blushed, feeling stupid over how I couldn’t stop stammering, but something about Fae truly affected me.

Fae finally smiled, a small, soft one, but a smile none the less and I felt my wolf leap with joy at the sight.

“I’m sorry alpha. I’ve been making everything about me when I’m here to serve you. I forgot that you were a virgin only hours ago. You don’t have to fuck me again if you don’t want to… but there’s so much more I could do to please you. If you let me.” The boy finished sweetly.

I couldn’t understand his sudden change in mood but I breathed a sigh of relief that I’d finally said something right and I felt the need to do more.

“Well… if I’m going to fuck you again, tell me, what kinds of things do you enjoy?”

Fae blushed and looked down at our hands for a moment before asking, “Why do you treat me like this? You know I’m not a normal omega and yet you’re so kind… so gentle, you choose to make me feel pleasure… I don’t understand.”

I sighed heavily… I didn’t want to go into my family drama. Letting people know my history and why I was pack less always led to judgment and ridicule. Although, this was Fae that I was considering opening up to. He was an omega, so for that alone, he would never change the way he treated me. Plus, he probably learned a lot of secrets, in his line of business; I was probably safe with him, I mused. So I decided to open up, just a little.

“Fae… I know what it feels like to be abused and unwanted… my father… well. I was never alpha enough for him and… I suppose that’s one of the reasons I’m not looking to mate. If my father was so disappointed in me that it broke my family, then how could I be ever enough for a mate and a whole family of my own?”

Fae’s eyes were soft and sympathetic as he listened and his tiny hands began to massage circles into mine, as if he were trying to take care of me and I didn’t even deserve it.

“I think you underestimate yourself,” Fae said shyly, peaking up at me through long, dark lashes.

“Maybe… but then there’s also the fact that I could try and mate with someone and they could refuse the union. That happened with my mother… and after I was born my father took on many omega lovers. I watched as she bent over backwards for him, only to be crushed by his obvious preference for anyone but her… and it was all my fault. If only I had been born right.”

I hadn’t realized that tears had gathered in my eyes but Fae seemed to. For the moment they spilled over, his tiny hand was there, wiping them away. I grabbed that hand tightly and kissed it, feeling overwhelmed by the need to be close to him after opening up like that. It had been years since I’d told anyone.

“Come here my little wolf,” I told him, pulling the boy over to me so that he could sit in my lap.

“Yes Alpha,” he whispered before snuggling in close to me.

I closed my eyes as I wrapped my arms around the fragile boy and enjoyed the intimate moment, probably a lot more than I should have, for someone who had no real claim on the omega. My wolf purred contentedly, telling me that I was finally doing the right thing, and I placed a soft kiss on Fae’s shoulder.

“Did you need more aftercare?” I asked him, suddenly concerned that I’d not lived up to my full potential as a lover.

“I don’t understand what you mean,” he told me as he nuzzled in even closer.

“Well… did I hold you long enough after you calmed down? Did it help to be put in my clothes? You haven’t eaten anything… do you not like the soup? Are you thirsty or cold?”

“You don’t have to take care of me Alpha,” the boy said simply. “I exist to service you.”

“Hey, remember, I need to do things the right way-”

“For the future,” he interrupted, in a cold voice. “I remember.”

“Okay, maybe let’s not think about the future,” I said, noting his icy reaction. “Besides, I also want to do things right for you. I always hoped my first time with someone would be amazing for both parties.”

“Was it… amazing for you?” The boy asked quietly.

“You’re very good at everything Fae,” I told him sincerely. “My cock has never felt more pleasure.”

“Am I?” Fae brightened, sounding genuinely pleased with himself.

“Yes, of course little wolf! You’re so good you threw me into a rut unexpectedly! I’m pretty sure that kind of thing doesn’t just happen!”

The boy’s entire body turned pink as I praised him, the blush unable to be contained by his cheeks alone and he lifted his face from my shoulder to smile at me; a real smile, teeth and all. It was then that I realized, first, that I’d never seen such a happy smile from the omega and secondly, that the poor boy was missing a few of his teeth.

“Where are your canines and back molars?” I asked, unaware as to how I hadn’t noticed them missing before.

All the joy left his face when I asked the question, and my wolf mentally snapped at me for the offense.

The boy reached his hand into the pocket that was on the chest of my t-shirt that he was wearing, and pulled out two fake teeth. He then turned his face away and put them in before turning back to look at me. I could taste the shame he was emitting into the air and my wolf could almost feel the sorrow of his own wolf, but just barley.

“M-master Frank had them removed,” Fae finally answered as a fresh tear slipped down his cheek. “I’m supposed to keep these in at all times… I’m sorry you had to see me like that Alpha. I should have been more careful. I only took them out because I can’t eat with them in… they’re just for decoration.”

“He removed your teeth?” I asked, unable to believe what I was hearing.

First that evil man had declawed one of our own and then he removed critical teeth to a wolves survival? It was madness! Clearly Frank wanted this omega as docile as possible, with no way to fight back, but it was still unforgivable. No matter what class you were, it did not give someone the right to take away another’s chance at basic survival.

“He punished me for catching a rabbit, in wolf form, on a day I was meant to go hungry,” the boy admitted. “He said if I had no way to catch my food then I’d be more well behaved… only, after he took them out, he decided I was too ugly without them. So he had these made, for his friends.”

“Do you like wearing them?” I asked, feeling a surge of hate go through my body towards Frank, and internally wincing at being included as Frank’s friend.

“Not really,” Fae admitted. “They’re very uncomfortable since they’re aren’t fitted properly but that’s no excuse. I shouldn’t have let you see me that way. I am sorry Alpha.” He hung his head, “Am I less beautiful now?”

“Come on,” I told him as I stood us both up and grabbed his hand, leading us towards my bathroom.

Once there, I lifted the boy up to the sink and sat him on the ledge so that he could get a good look at himself in the only mirror I had.

“You’re very beautiful Fae,” I told him as we looked at his reflection together.

“You were telling the truth,” the boy whispered, in awe of his angelic face as he touched his own cheeks. Then he took out the teeth. “Oh!” He gasped, blinking back fresh tears, “Now I’m even more sorry you had to see me like this Alpha. Missing them really does change my face.”

“Shhh none of that pup. You look lovely both ways,” I told him, hating that he felt the need to apologize over such trivial things.

He nodded slightly before he gasped again, this time in anguish. “My hair! I’d hoped Master Frank hadn’t cut too much but look at it! It’s ruined and horrid now.”