Part 1. Beginning My Life as a Porn Star
Let me start of by saying that it was never my intention to become involved in the porn industry or especially to be a performer, let alone a gay performer. But I spent just over two years in the industry took part in several hundred scenes. I can further say that I enjoyed it and would do it again, even though I have now moved on to other things.
It started when I was in grad school in southern California. I was constantly broke, did not know where my next meal was coming from, let alone where I would get tuition and fees for my next semester. A woman friend of mine, Cindy, confided that she worked occasionally as a technician for a film company. I asked her what kind of films and she smiled and said “porn”. I was instantly curious and asked more questions, such as what kind of porn, how often she worked, and finally, could I get a job there? The answers were, all kinds of porn, she worked several times a week in make-up, and she didn’t think they needed anybody. I put it out of my mind.
A couple of weeks later I met Cindy for coffee and she told me that she was going to work that afternoon and would I like to come along and see what went into making porn. Of course I agreed and later that afternoon I met he at the appointed address. A rather nice house in one of the better suburbs. The studio set-up looked pretty much how you would expect it. There were lights, a bunch of technical people running around and the set was the living room made to look like a bedroom with a king size bed.
Cindy introduced me around. The director, Martha, was a nice-looking woman in her mid-50s, slim, with blond hair and a winning smile. There were six male actors and one young woman actress. The actress was a petite mixed race girl with light brown skin, long kinky black hair and beautiful dark brown eyes that sparkled when she smiled, which seemed to be all of the time. She looked to be about 18 years old. The male actors consisted of four white and two African Americans. All were busy going through make-up and my friend got busy working on one of the men. Martha explained that the scene was a gangbang, it would involve all six men, one woman, oral sex, and double penetration, that is the actress would be penetrated both vaginally and anally and at the same time suck a penis. She will be “air-tight” or “all holes filled” as Cindy put it.
After everyone had their make-up and took their places the action started. Several things impressed me. All six actors were very well endowed. Everyone was very friendly and respectful, especially toward the actress. I was surprised how a great deal of attention was placed on positioning and timing and who penetrated which hole and when. All action was frequently stopped while people were repositioned or the actress’ make-up was reapplied or she was given a short rest. In fact, it seemed that more time was devoted to this than the actual action of filming sex. It really wasn’t all that sexy. Just a lot of work under hot lights. The relatively long intervals of inaction lead to the most surprising thing I witnessed and that was the efforts to keep the six men’s penises erect for the filming. This involved several members of the technical crew.
Now I had heard of fluffers before. What I didn’t know was that this involved much of the crew, including my friend Cindy, who masturbated and fellated the actors as needed before the action restarted. It was at this point that Martha, the director, made a request of me. “Could you help out here?” One of the actors, a big white guy had lost his erection.
“What do you want me to do?” I asked.
“Suck his dick and get him hard!” came the reply.
Well, I’m definitely not gay, or bi (as far as I know) but it immediately dawned on me that this might lead to something more. So I knelt in front of the guy and began vigorously sucking. “Woa, don’t make him cum,” Martha said, just get him hard. The actor laughed. For the rest of the shoot I helped out in this way and ended up fellating all six men at one time or the other during the shoot. This was the first time I ever had a cock in my mouth but none of them ejaculated, that would have defeated the purpose of the shoot, which was for two dicks to cum in each of the actress’ holes. What especially surprised me about the experience of sucking several dicks in front of a bunch of people was that I kind of enjoyed doing it. Especially insofar as there was nothing judgmental said, only that I did a good job.
Later after the shoot I was handed an envelope with $200. “For helping us when we were in need!” Martha said. “Do you think you would be interested in this kind of work?”
“Professional fluffing?” I asked.
“No, we rarely need that, only with gangbangs.” She replied. “We are always looking for new talent.”
Now I should point out at this time I was in good shape and very clean cut, with no body art or piercings. “What do I have to do?” I asked.
“Well, can I see you naked?”
I stripped down and the director looked me over. “Can you get it up? She asked?
That a bit hard to do on demand, but Cindy came over and deftly stroked my penis with her hand. I could see that Martha was disappointed though.
“It’s nice and you probably don’t have trouble making your girlfriend happy but it is not quite the size we need.” She said.
I knew this of course, I never expected an acting job. But she went on. “Would you object to performing gay?”
“I don’t know about that,” I replied, “I’m not gay, and don’t I need a big dick for that?”
“Not necessarily, if you are willing to bottom. Are you a virgin?”
“No, of course not.”
“I mean have you ever taken a cock up your ass?”
“Oh, no I haven’t.”
“Well, bottoming in gay porn actually pays quite well. You want to give it a try?”
“How well?”
She quoted me a figure.
“When do I start?” I immediately said.
“We can set up a film audition next week. In the meantime, I suggest that you buy a dildo and practice. Did you notice how big the cocks were today?”
I had.
“Make sure that you practice on a dildo at least that big, or better yet bigger!”
Most fans of porn know that the female models and actresses make far more money on a per shoot basis than the male actors, who generally are referred to as studs. Mainly men are there only as a prop for the women. Their job is to look good, have a big dick, be able to keep it up, and cum on demand. This is a lot harder than you might think. What few people know is that men willing to do gay shoots can make money comparative with women in porn. Tops generally are required to be well endowed and have the same demands on them as male performers in straight or hetero porn. Bottoms, on the other hand, can be less well endowed and, if they are good, can command even more money. This is especially true for more masculine bottoms, in other words, someone not effeminate. Frequently, straight or bi men will fill these roles. Of course, they must be willing to fellate, submit to anal penetration, and take on a submissive sexual role, which is hard for a lot of men. But I was willing to give it a try.
So that afternoon Cindy and I visited a sex shop and she helped me pick out several dildos. They were of different sizes, a small one, about 6.5 inches, medium, about 7.5 inches and a huge 9 inch dong. All of them were realistically sculped and made of silicone to give them a natural feel. I also stopped at a clinic to get a blood test for STD. This is very important in the porn industry and required on a regular basis. I practiced taking dildos up my ass several times a day, slowly working my way up to the large one. They were all provided with suction cups and I started by fixing them to my shower wall, lubed myself with KY Jelly and backed into them. The most painful part was initial penetration. But once my sphincters relaxed, I had no trouble accepting the whole length, even the large one toward the end of the week. Then with rhythmic in and out motions I could simulate being fucked. The other method I used was fixing the dildo to a chair and sitting on it. Here I also simulated fucking by rocking up and down. I have to say that once I got used to the large dildo in my ass it actually felt quite good. Several times when I masturbated the pressure on my prostate made me cum very quickly and hard.
The big day for my audition finally came and Cindy and I drove to the studio. I asked her to come in with me for moral support. I was quite nervous. The female director, Martha, who I had met the week before, was there of course, along with a young African American guy, Jim, who I had not met before. I was introduced to him and found out that he was a well known stud in both straight and gay porn. I soon found out why he was in such demand.
I was invited to sit on the couch next to the Jim and Cindy took a chair across the room. Several technicians came in and started setting up some lights and three camera women got their equipment ready. Martha spoke in a very relaxing manner and assured me that I shouldn’t feel pressured.
“We are not really here to see how you perform,” she said. “We wouldn’t expect you to be perfect the first time, what we really want is for you to see if this is something that you want to do. If you decide it is not your cup of tea, then no hard feelings.”
“So first I want the two of you to undress each other and get used to your bodies.” We started to do this, it actually felt kind of natural, even though, with the exception of sucking six dicks the week before, this was the first time I had been intimate with another man. There were several cameras going at various angles.
Jim started by rubbing my shoulders, I relaxed as much as I could, under the circumstances. He then slipped my shirt off and started rubbing my chest. The hard part came when he kissed me on the lips. I had not expected that. I went along with the kiss and he slipped his tongue into my mouth. I responded and it soon felt natural. Jim’s hands moved down to my stomach while we were kissing and he undid my belt and unzipped my pants. I lifted myself up and helped as he slipped my pants off and rubbed my penis and testicles through my underwear. Then off went my underwear and he leaned down and took my penis into his mouth. It felt wonderful, every bit as good as a blowjob from any woman I ever knew, actually better. He was a master with his tongue and used his hands skillfully to stroke my pubis just above my penis and gently massage my testicles. I was building up to a tremendous orgasm when, sensing this, he stopped. In the process of undressing me, Jim’s shirt had come off. I unzipped his pants and he slipped them off. He was wearing no underwear and his massive, semi-hard, uncircumcised penis flopped out.
“Suck it hard,” Martha said in a low voice. I tried to fit Jim’s cock as deeply into my mouth as it would go, but as it hardened I could hardly open my mouth wide enough to accommodate it. I learned later that it was at nearly 11 inches long and 8 inches in circumference.
“Careful of the teeth.” Jim whispered as I slid it in and out of my mouth. It was hard for me to avoid nicking his cock with my teeth because of its huge girth.
With Jim fully erect Martha started giving me directions in a low voice.
“Work your way down to his balls now”
I did this and licked his balls and lower shaft.
“Now lick your way down to his asshole and rim him.”
I hadn’t expected to do this but I obeyed and Jim raised his legs on que to expose his anus. I worked my tongue around his hole and he groaned, obviously enjoying it.
“See how far you can get your tongue up his ass.” Martha whispered.
Once again I obeyed and probed his anus deeper. I sensed a camera coming in for a closeup.
“OK, lay on your stomach.”
“Put the pillow under your pelvis to get your ass up.”
“that’s it, now draw your knees up and spread your legs apart.”
Jim went down between my legs and started licking my asshole and probing with his fingers. One of the camerawomen came in tight for a close-up. Cindy was there with a bottle of KY lube and dribbled it into my crack then rubbed it into my anus with her probing fingers. During this break in the action Jim lubed up his penis. Then the action started again.
“OK, Jim, give it to him slow,” Martha said.
I felt his huge cock rubbing up and down my crack. I lifted my ass to help him. The tip of his cock found my anus. Pressure! I felt him going in, and tried to relax my sphincter as much as possible. I felt myself stretch as he pushed harder. Then, suddenly, I felt his head slip in. I winced with pain and groaned.
“That’s good, that’s good,” Martha said in encouragement. “Just go with the flow, it’s OK to groan, just go with it!”
I really wasn’t listening, my mind was focused on the object impaling me and the pain that it entailed. I felt more pressure and Jim’s cock slipped in deeper. He started a rhythmic in and out motion, with each instroke taking it deeper. Tears started rolling down my cheeks and he pounded harder.
In, out, in, out, in , out. Harder and faster. I heard Jim breathing harder. In, out, in, out. I lost track of time. In, out, in out, in, out. He pushed harder each time untill I felt like I was being fucked by a pile driver. In, out, in, out, in , out, Jim’s breaths became short gasps.
“I’m gonna cum,” Jim said in a husky voice.
“Pull out and let him suck you dry!” Martha directed.
As I felt his massive cock withdraw, it felt like I was taking the biggest shit of my life. No time for relief though, and, rolling over on my back, Jim moved above me with his huge member in my face with his balls above my eyes. I opened wide for him just as a stream of semen shot from his cock. I could taste the warm fluid on my mouth and then tongue and swallowed as fast as I could. He thrust deep, almost throat-fucking me. His massive balls temporarily blocking my nostrils. I grasped his hips and tried to push him up. Sensing my distress, he pulled his cock out. Jim straddled my head with his cock still above me and I stroked it with my hand, licking his shaft and he started to lose his erection. I licked the last drops of cum of the tip of his glans before it disappeared into his foreskin.
“Wonderful! Nice finish there at the end,” Martha said in her low voice.
“That was great!” Jim said. “You are really tight, I don’t get to do virgins very often. And a good cocksucker too!” He was smiling broadly.
After I dressed, I sat on the back porch of the house-studio with Martha, Cindy, and several of the other technical staff and discussed the shoot. Martha said that she would make a cut of the session to be used as a promo. The video would also be posted on their newbie website if I was ok with that. Of course I would be paid for the shoot.
Everything was premised on whether or not I was willing to go ahead with signing the model’s release for the days shoot and a contract to start a career in porn. In drawing up the contract were there any acts that I objected to doing? Was I ok with anal sex? Of course I was. If I could take Jim’s dick up my ass I could take anything! Oral sex, ejaculation in my mouth, swallowing semen? Yes, no objections. Was I ok with performing anilingus on men? Yes. Was I ok with performing in group sessions with several men? Yes. Was I capable of performing sexually with women? Yes. Was I ok with performing bisexually in scenes involving both men and women? Yes. Was I ok with performing cunnilingus and anilingus on women? Yes. Was I OK with bondage? Yes.
Actually, the only things that I drew the line at were anything involving excretion, blood, or excessive pain. So a contract was drawn up and I decided to take the plunge and signed. The next shoot would be in two days.
Cindy winked at me, “Better keep practicing with your dildos.”