It’ll be our secret

“Hannah, are you paying attention? Did you hear a single thing I just said!?”

Diana’s voice went right through me and brought me back into the room, that loud, screechy, nails on a chalkboard voice.

“Yes, I heard you. Sorry, I was just.. thinking about.. the final showcase” Quick thinking from me, and a quick eye roll from Diana.

Honestly, why is it that as soon as you decide to pursue your passion people who never made it decide to take away your love for it?

“Soph? Are you okay?”

“I…I… I don’t think I can do this… I don’t think I’m ready”

“That’s fine, I told you if you wanted me to stop I’ll stop.” I button her jeans back up and crawl up to her. “Do you want me to go”

“No” She’s looking for her bra and t-shirt “No, please stay. I still want to kiss you if that’s okay?”

“Well. if that’s okay with you that’s okay with me” As difficult as it was going to be not to rip her clothes off and fuck her into multiple orgasms all night, I couldn’t turn down the opportunity to kiss someone as beautiful as her.

She’s fully dressed again and is tracing the outline of my face with her fingers “Thank you, you’re a really good kisser you know” there are those eyes again.

“You’re not bad yourself. 3/10”

“Excuse me?” She pulls me down to her “3/10? Take that back or you’ll be getting no more”

“I don’t think you’d be able to stick to that threat” I kiss her neck “What do you think”

“Fuck you Hannah” she grabs me and flips me and now she’s on top of me.

“Sorry no can do, you said kissing only” Me all over, snarky little comments are my way of flirting.

“You’re right I did. But I didn’t say where did I?” She ripped my shirt off and my buttons pinged everywhere. “You thought it was fun teasing me, didn’t you? You thought you were hilarious making me squirm.

“Let’s see how you like it” She started licking down my chest and tracing her tongue along my bra line. This was fucking torture. A few hours ago I didn’t know this girl, I thought she was boring as fuck and I was praying for Steve to take her out of my hands. Now she’s got me lying here like her little bitch.

“This isn’t a fair game Soph.. you’re not playing fair at all”

“Cry me a river” she pulls down my bra and takes my nipple into her mouth and gives it a gentle bite.

“Ahhh fuck. Oh my god, what the fuck are you doing to me”

“I’m showing you how shit of a lesbian I would be.. remember?” She lets my nipple go and kisses her way up to my lips again, kissing me deeply, biting and pulling at my lip, and grinding up against me. It took so much for me to not break the rules and fuck her right there and then.

This went on for a couple of hours, back and forward flipping each other over, kissing each other deeply but never going beyond kissing, and then we finally fell asleep in each others arms.

 

Chapter 5

 

I woke up to my phone ringing, it was Jenny. Did last night actually happen? Where was Sophie? It definitely happened because my shirt is ruined. But where did she go?

“Hello?.. Hannah, I’m so sorry I left last night I was so drunk and all I wanted was Bec. Are you still at Steve’s?”

“Emmm.. yeah, I am… one second Jen..” What the fuck am I going to put on I can’t leave here with no shirt. “Hi sorry, em yeah I’m still here, can you come and get me?”

“Yeah sure, we’ll be about 20 minutes, want to grab some breakfast, you know fuel for round 2?” Oh god I couldn’t even think of drinking again.

“Yeah sounds good, you’re paying you to owe me one”

“Sure thing, see you soon”

Fuck. I’m going to need to do the walk of shame and ask Steve for a shirt. But what do I say? I promised Sophie it would be our secret. Okay, I have a plan, I’m an idiot when I’m drunk, and everyone knows I like to strip. So I ripped the buttons myself, sad thing is, that’s actually believable.

I went looking for Steve and he was on the first floor curled up on the sofa.

“Cuz, I need to borrow a shirt” He jumped up as if he had seen a ghost.

“Holy shit you scared me! Did you stay last night? What the fuck happened to your shirt?”

“Yeah, I stayed, Jenny, ditched for.. she was too drunk” keep forgetting not to mention that she has a girlfriend. “And my shirt, you know me, I think I’m the hulk when I’m drunk and I ripped it off”

“Of course you did. Sure go on up to my room and grab a shirt”

“Will, I do not wake up.. what’s her name?”

“Clare? No, she and Sophie left early this morning” Okay so that’s where she went.

I went up to Steve’s room and got dressed, freshened myself up in his en-suite, and sat down with him while I waited on Jen and Bec.

“So… a birdie told me that you and Sophie were all over each other last night?”

Shit… I forgot people saw, think fast “Yeah it was nothing.. some guy was groping her so she said I was her girlfriend.. so just playing the part you know?”

“Yeah makes sense. Are you coming to the party tonight then? It’ll be a quieter one, the people from last night will probably be too hungover” He looked so proud.

“Yeah going to get breakfast and back to Jen’s to have a nap and get ready, do you need us to bring anything?”

“No I’m good, but since you and Sophie are good friends now can you distract her tonight again? She’s always stuck to Clare’s hip”

“Yeah sure” My pleasure… “Do you have her number I’ll link in with her see if she wants to come to Jens first” Quick thinking yet again?

“Yeah sure here”

“Cheers cuz” I hear a beeping from outside “That must be Jen, see you tonight loser. Breakfast was pretty boring, we didn’t really talk much, Jen mostly talked about how her head was so sore and she’s never been this hungover in her life. Bec talked about how she’s ignoring her calls if she gets another one tonight because she can’t be bothered babysitting Jen again. I basically sat in silence. Looking at Sophie’s number. Wondering what I was going to text her. Should I ring her? Nah, that’s too old school. I’ll just bite the bullet.

Me–Hi Sophie, it’s Hannah, Steve’s cousin.. he said you were going to party again tonight and asked me to see if you wanted to hang. We’re having drinks with my friends before we go, you in.

I’m fast at texting, so when people take longer than me to reply it really eats at me. Unless she’s not going to reply and she’s just ignoring me. I’ll go for my nap to regenerate means I can sleep past the annoying wait of the reply. I woke up about 4 hours later, I must have really needed that nap. I didn’t drink much last night, but I sure as hell had very little sleep. I check my phone to see if Sophie replied.

Sophie – No I’m going with Clare. Did you tell anyone about last night? Clare asked me about us.

Shit, she replied hours ago, she must be panicking.

Me – No, Steve asked too, because people saw us kiss. I said that some guy was pestering you so I pretended to be your gf. I haven’t told anyone. Not even my best friend.

Sophie – Ok. Thank you. See you at the party.

Why am I so excited to see Sophie again? This isn’t like me. Usually, I dread seeing the one-night stand straight girls again. But I guess she wasn’t a one-night stand since we didn’t sleep together. I do love the chase don’t I.. that must be it. Maybe tonight is that night.

 

Chapter 6

 

Round 2. I always prefer the day after the main party. More chilled feel and also fewer douchebags because most of them used all their energy the night before. But tonight I only care about one thing, Sophie.

I and Jen turned up at about 10 PM this time, she wanted to spend most of the night with Bex so we drank mostly in her house. Bec will pick us up again later. It’s a shame she’s not out yet, she’d love coming out with us.

Jen, as usual, straight to the bar. Me on the other hand scanning the room for Sophie. No where to be seen, but I do see Clare and Steve. Maybe Sophie didn’t come.

“Hey Loser, hey Clare”

“Hey, bigger loser. Jenny gone already?”

“How did you know” I roll my eyes “So Steve you asked me for a favor earlier, do you still need it?” Clare looked at him confused.

“Emmm no thank you, I actually got one of the guys to take care of the beer for me” He winked and my heart sank. One of the guys? Sophie was with a guy?

“Okay, no problem, who was it so I can grab a beer from him?” Or grab Sophie more like it.

“It’s Alan, he’s over there. See you later cuz”

I look over and I see Alan, I don’t really know him more of a,’ know of him’ situation. He’s a toolbag, treats girls like shit, fucks them, and chucks them as he calls it. He’s got his arm around Sophie laughing with her. Time for me to go save her.

“Hey, Soph… Alan”

“Oh hi.” She blankly looks at me, then turns her attention back to Alan.

“Would you like a drink?”

“No thank you Alan got me one”

“Oh okay, so you having a good night?”

“Yeah, I am. Sorry but I and Alan were just talking, but have a good night” she turned away again focusing on Alan. She acted as if I was nothing as if I didn’t matter. Why did that hurt so much? Why was I so jealous that Alan was getting the attention and not me. Fuck this. I need to find Jenny so I can get drunk and forget Sophie.

 

**********

 

1 AM. I am wasted! I and Jen have spent most of the night laughing and dancing. Every so often I look around and see Alan and Sophie, last I saw they were basically fucking against the sofa. But do I care? NOPE! Fuck her. I don’t need a girl who doesn’t know what she wants anyway.

“Hannah, Where’s the vanilla vodka we brought last night? I want to make a funky cocktail”

“Aww Jen it’s all the way up in the spare room I can’t be bothered going up there!” We were both so drunk more cocktails probably wasn’t the best idea.

“Come on, if we both go it means it’ll take half the time!” Obviously drunk us didn’t do maths very well.

“You’re a genius lets go!”

After what felt like 1 million stairs we were finally there. I love my cousin, but why does he need such a big house for one person so much more stairs to climb!

“Soo… why did we climb the stairs again?”

“Jen you wanted the vodka I hid it here last night when I… when I went to bed!”

“You’re so smart. C’mon” Jen opened the door and we both froze. There were people fucking. “Sorry guys, we just want our vodka carry-on!” Jen has no boundaries.

“Sophie?” I was drunk… I wasn’t having flashbacks of last night was I? “Sophie is that you?” I think I actually heard my heartbreak. How could she be with me last night, ignore me tonight and be in the same bed we spent the night in getting fucked by some dude?!

“Hannah.. wait…no… it’s not..” I walked out and Jen followed.

“Sorry, again guys but vodka is more important than sex right now” Jen shouted in before closing the door. “Hannah slow down I’m going to fall”

“Jen I want to go” Why did that hurt so fucking much? I barely knew the girl? Maybe it’s just because I’m drunk. I’m a very emotional drunk. “Please tell Bec to come to get me”

“Why? We’re having fun!” She was doing her yappy voice “I don’t want to go”

“Let’s just fucking go. You can stay I don’t care, I want to leave.” Jen saw how serious I was, and within seconds she was ringing Bec.

“Okay, she said she’s about 10 minutes away” great, stuck here for 10 minutes with that slut upstairs.

“Thanks, Jen”

“What’s wrong Hannah Banana?” Hate when she’s cutesy.

“Nothing I just..” and then I was cut off by her. Sophie was standing there looking like she was terrified of me, or what she did more like it.

“Hannah, can I grab you a second?”

“No thank you, I was just talking to Jen, have a good night” using her words from earlier against her.

“Hannah please, just 5 minutes”

“No I’m fine, our lift will be here in a second”

“You’re leaving?”

“Usually that’s what lifts are for Sophie. Go have a good night, I’m sure Alans waiting on you” She had tears in her eyes but she understood she was going to get nowhere and she walked away. Not before saying sorry under her breath.

Bec arrived shortly after and Jen made a point of getting in the back with me.

“Hannah, what’s wrong? What happened back there?”

“Nothing just drop it” my phone dinged.

Sophie – Hannah I’m so sorry you had to see that. I’m drunk and it just happened. Please talk to me.

“Is that Steve’s, girlfriend, friend Sophie?!” That sneak reading my text!

“Yes. But it doesn’t matter Jen.”

“What happened to tell me” she lifts my chin up and as soon as my eyes meet hers I start crying. I tell her about the night before and how I’ve been feeling since and she just listens. In the end, she takes a deep breath.

“Hannah, you probably feel more because you didn’t sleep with her. You got to know her and spent the night kissing and cuddling which to you is a lot more intimate than sex. It’s normal but it’ll pass. You’ll move on from it quickly, you’ve got a wee touch of puppy love is all.”

She’s right. It felt different because it was different. Fuck her. I’ll be over it by next weekend and I’ll have someone new on my arm. For now, I just need to sleep on it, and tomorrow I’m detoxing. After these past 2 nights, I need to take a break

 

Chapter 7

 

It’s the morning after the party, the first thing I do is the same thing I do every morning. Check my phone.

Sophie – Please talk to me. It was a mistake.

Sophie – Do you hate me? Please don’t hate me! I was scared of what happened to us. I know that’s a stupid excuse. But I’m sorry

Sophie – Can you answer your phone?

Sophie – Morning Hannah, I’ll leave you alone. I’m sorry if I hurt you. But if you want to talk, I’m still at Steve’s.

Fuck. She’s even texted me when sober. Should I give her a chance to talk to me? Why do we even need to talk it’s not as if we’re a couple. Why is she sorry? Does she feel the same way I feel? Did that night mean more to her too? I need to know!

Me – I was sleeping. Are you still at Steve’s?

Sophie – Yes. And I’m alone. They have gone out on a date.

Me – Okay, I’ll be walking probably still too drunk to drive over so will be about 30 minutes.

Sophie – Don’t be silly. I’ll come to get you to send me the address.

So she’ll be here in about 10 minutes. And I look like a mess. I smell like a mess… I’m a mess! Wait who gives a shit. She probably looks like a mess too after being plowed by that fucking ogre last night. She was right when she said she goes for dickheads. Her car pulls up and she gives me a quick smile and unlocks the door.

“Hey” she smiles at me again “hungover today?”

“Umm” Not going to give her much.

“Yeah me too. I never drink 2 nights in a row, I can barely do one night. It’s really not like me at all”

“I’m sure”

“So.. do you want to talk now or?..”

“We’ll talk at Steve’s unless you want me to throw up on your dashboard” The motion of the car and the image of Alan on top of her would be enough to make anyone sick.

“No thank you” She giggled “you’re so sexy when you’re hungover” trying to butter me up by flirting. It’s not going to work.

The rest of the way Sophie tried to make small talk, thank god it was a short drive because I could not be fucked with her.

“Okay we’re here come on in”

“Did you just invite me into my own family’s house? Just because you fucked someone in it doesn’t make it yours”

“Wow.. okay… I meant nothing by it, Hannah.. are you going to be horrible to me? Because I don’t think I can handle that. I can’t bear the thought of you hating me” Just like last night it looked like she was going to cry.

“No, sorry I’m hungover and when I’m hungover I’m moody. And the light from outside is giving me a headache. Can we go to the games room please, at least in there’s dark”

“Yeah sure. Em… where is it?”

She followed me to the games room, it was more of a converted garage but it had a TV, a sofa, games consoles, and all sorts in it.

“That’s so much better” I flopped myself onto the sofa. “So you want to talk? Talk.”

“Hannah.. well.. can I sit first” I was lying down on the sofa forgetting she needed room too so I pushed myself up a bit so she could sit at the bottom of my feet. “Thank you. I just want to tell you how sorry I am”

“Why are you sorry? Not as if we are anything?”

“I’m sorry because I hurt you Hannah.. and I… I see you as my friend, and I never want to hurt my friends”

“Do you know why you hurt me?”

“Because I slept with someone?”

“No, Soph. You can fuck who you like. What hurt me was the way you treated me as if I was nothing. When I tried to talk to you I felt like a piece of shit, you basically told me to go away. If I was your ‘friend’ why would you treat me like nothing?”

“I didn’t mean to, I just didn’t want people making assumptions after seeing us kiss the other night. And I don’t think you’re nothing. You’re definitely not a piece of shit either. You’re amazing” she turned and look at me dead in the eyes, I could tell she meant it.

“Well I don’t feel amazing” she put her hand on my leg and started rubbing.

“Trust me, the way you treated me that night. That was the nicest anyone has ever treated me. If I told guys no sex, he would have left me there, but you stayed and were happy just to be there with me.” She then pushed one of my legs off the sofa and started to climb up my body.

“What are you doing?” She was getting closer to my face, and those sad eyes were now darkened once again

“I can’t stop thinking about how good of a kisser you are. I can’t get that feeling out of my head” I need to say no. I can’t let her have me one day and fuck me to the side the next.

“Soph this is a bad idea. You know it is”

“Then… tell… me… To… Stop…” she was right in front of me now, her legs were straddling my hips.

“St…don…we can’t…”

“I.. didn’t… hear… stop” right then she kissed me ever so softly that I felt it burning through my body. She’s such a tease! “You can’t deny that when we kiss it’s just different” she kisses me again but this time I little harder.

“Why have you go to be so god damn sexy. This isn’t fair”

“Awk are you talking about what’s fair and unfair again.. awk baby… I guess I’ll stop then” plants another kiss on me and I feel her warm tongue enter my mouth “that was just one for you to remember me by”

She gets off me and starts to slowly walk towards the door to leave the room. She’s wearing pajama shorts that fit her ass just right and make it so hard to watch her walk away. She turns slightly and fires me a seductive look. That’s it. Self-control out the window. I jump off the sofa and walk over to her. I grab her with force and aggressively kiss her.

“Don’t you walk away from me until I say I’m done” she smirks at me as if she knew that I was going to grab her?

“Baby, what makes you think you call the shots here?”

“You’ll be telling me I do, just you wait and see”

I pull her closer again and violently kiss her causing her to moan deep into my mouth. I grab her ass and lift her up and she wraps her legs and arms around me. I hold her up against the wall and continue to kiss her deeply and aggressively. I go for her neck again which caused her to scream and scratch up my back.

Not this again. I can feel how wet I am, I want to fuck her so much but I need to wait until she’s ready. I need her to beg me to fuck her. I need to taste her.

I lift her back over to the sofa we were on and set her down. I grab her tank top and pull it off her, revealing those beautiful breasts. “Not wearing a bra today, were you expecting this to happen?” I push her down on the sofa so she’s now lying on it and climb in between her legs. “Sophie I asked you a question”

“No, I wasn’t expecting it to happen” I start kissing my way up her stomach “Oh fuck me, Hannah!!”

“Sorry that’s against the rules, you keep forgetting your own rules Sophie” I love teasing her

“So you weren’t expecting this to happen, but were you hoping it would happen?”

I trace my tongue around her nipple while gently squeezing the other one.

“Aww, baby.. fuck.. that’s so nice… I… I was hoping that… aww yes.. that we would kiss.. but I never expected this… fuck”

“Oh, so you planned to get me over here and seduce me as a way to say sorry?..” It’s time to take my chance. I start tracing my hand down her stomach and start playing with the elastic of the shorts, I look up to see her eyes still filled with lust and she’s biting her lip while squeezing the arm of the sofa. “Sophie, concentrate now.. was your plan to seduce me so I wouldn’t be angry anymore?”

“No… well… kind of.. you’re such a tease! I just wanted to kiss you again… I love kissing you… Hannah please I’m so wet”

A rush went through my body, hearing her tell me she’s wet got my heart going. But she wasn’t getting fucked that easy. I needed her to suffer a bit more. I needed her to beg me to fuck her.

“Awk are you wanting me to sort that out for you?” I take my fingers out of the elastic of her shorts and I hear her groan in disappointment. I then move my hand over her shorts and start rubbing her pussy through them. I can feel how wet she is already.

“Aww fuck Hannah! That feels so good. Please don’t fucking stop”

“We’re going to play a game Sophie” I continue to rub her pussy over her shorts.

“A fucking game right now? You’re killing me”

“The better you do baby, the better you’ll feel I promise. So, question one, who’s kiss did you like better, mine or Alan?” I rub a little harder.

“Aww, baby it feels so fucking good! You baby, your kisses were like electricity through my body”

“Good answer, next question, who’s touch made you wetter?” I kiss my way down her body and start kissing her thighs causing her to tremble.

“You! All fucking you! Not even a question, Hannah please, fucking please!”

“Final question baby… who calls the shots here”

“You do, you fucking call the shots, now stop teasing me and fuck me please just fuck me”

That was all I needed. In a split second I pull off Sophie’s shorts, she’s not wearing any panties. She was definitely hoping for this. I take my index finger and slowly stroke through her soaking wet slit causing her to scream in pleasure. I look her directly in the eyes and suck her juices right off my finger. She tastes fucking fantastic.

“You’re a sexy bitch Hannah, you’re so fucking hot!” I take 2 fingers this time and do the same thing and Sophie shivers again. “Hannah please fuck me, please, I need to feel you inside me, baby make me cum for you” Her words alone turn me on so much. I can’t deny someone that beautiful the pleasure she deserves. I slowly stick 2 fingers deep inside her causing her head to fall back over the sofa. I slowly start fucking her and rubbing her clit with my thumb, she screams with every stroke I take. Her moans are enough to make me fuck her for the rest of my life. I start to speed up my strokes, each one getting harder and deeper. My thumb circling her clit at the same speed, I look up at the beauty and she has a cushion covering her mouth to silence her moans. So I stop.

“Hannah what the fuck I’m so close why did you stop?!” I start circling her clit again, and climb up closer to my beautiful face. She’s softly moaning again.

“I want to hear you moan with every thrust I make, I want to make you cum until you can’t cum anymore, I want you to hear me scream my name when your orgasm gets so intense you can’t take anymore. Is that understood?” She starts to nod. “Sorry I didn’t hear you?”

“YES, JUST LET ME CUM HANNAH, PLEASE”

With that I plunge back into her, this time much faster, curling my fingers inside her while still rubbing her clit with my thumb. I can feel that she’s close, her pussy is getting so tight, she’s digging her nails deeper into my back, her screams and moans are deafening but they’re so fucking sexy.

“Oh my fuck Hannah baby please don’t stop, I’m cumming, please harder!!” I go harder and deeper again and after a few more strokes her whole body tightens up. She lets out a crazy scream in pleasure and her juices are all over my hand.

“HOLY SHIT HANNAH” Her breathing was so heavy now, she pulls me in for a kiss. “That was amazing. It’s like you knew my body better than me. Why didn’t I let you do that to me the first time?”

I give her another gentle kiss, a small tug on her bottom lip, and whisper to her “We’re not done yet” I make my way back down to her glistening pussy and lick gently between her slit. She shivers again and lets out another one of those amazing moans. “Baby.. you taste so good, I could eat you out all day..”

And then reality hits “Hello! Sophie, we’re back!” Fucking Clare.

“Oh shit! Clare and Steve are back! Hannah where did you throw my shorts!? Fuck!” She bolts up searching for her clothes.

“Calm down Soph they’re here!” She snatches them off me and rushes to put them back on.

“Does my hair look okay?? Do you think they’ll know? Fuck this was a bad idea” My heart sank again. How does she keep making this happen? “Right come on, let’s go see them, I’ll leave you home”

“Okay let’s go.” I pull her in for the last kiss and she pushes me away, “Really?”

“Not now, let’s just go before they get suspicious”

With that, we left to greet them and went back to pretending nothing happened.

 

Chapter 8

 

I stayed and made small talk for a while, Sophie barely looked at me. Steve and Clare seemed too wrapped up in each other to notice though.

“Right well I should probably get back to Jen’s. Sophie are you okay to give me a lift?” She shot a look at Clare and Steve, then back to me.

“Sure come on”

When we got into the car I could feel the tension. It wasn’t sexual though, it was just a really awkward feeling.

“Sophie? What’s wrong?”

“That should never have happened. I’m straight. I like men.”

“Ouch. From what I heard.. felt.. tasted.. you like me” I put my hand on her leg to try and break the tension but she slaps it away.

“That was a mistake. It shouldn’t have happened and it can’t happen again. It’s probably best if we just pretend it never happened and not mention it again”

I can’t lie. This hurt. Fuck her, she knew what was going to happen when she asked me to come over, she said she wanted to kiss me. Now she’s going back because we had sex? No. I’m done. She’s not having me again. “Yeah sure. No problem. It’ll be our secret as you said”

“Thank you. Here we are. I guess I’ll see you next week at the party?”

“Maybe.” I’m being cold towards her now. “Bye”

I feel so used.

 

**********

 

I snuck back into Jen’s, hoping she didn’t realize I left and when I walk in Bec is sitting having a coffee.

“Afternoon. Out for a walk?” She smiles, she knows I wasn’t out for a walk. “I’m joking, don’t worry. Jenny’s still fast asleep, I won’t say a thing”

“Thanks, Bec, I appreciate it”

“Are you okay?” She’s clearly picked up that I’m pissed off.

“Yeah, I’m fine no big deal. Just..” I need to be careful here, I need to remember Bec is hiding what’s going on with Jen too… “Bec. Do you ever feel guilty for making Jen hide your relationship” surprisingly she starts to laugh?

“Oh Hannah, I’m not making her hide anything. See I just don’t want my parents to know yet, I’m not ready, but Jen decided to keep us quiet until I did, to protect me from it getting back to them” she took another drink of her coffee.

“I’d be happy to flaunt Jenny to the world, but she loves me too much, she’s trying to protect me. Hannah, what’s going on? Is it that girl who made you upset last night?”

“Yeah. I went to see her, and we ended up sleeping together. It felt different Bec. She said it felt different. But as soon as she realized what happened she freaked out. I actually like this one Bec”

“Oh, sweetie. I’m sorry. It’s hard being in that position. But if she’s freaking out, she’s not ready. When I met Jen I knew I was gay, so I was okay with what happened next, it sounds like Sophie isn’t ready sweetie and I don’t want you getting hurt”

“You’re right. As much as I don’t like the thought of not kissing her again, I can’t let it get any worse than it already is. Maybe it’s time for me to look for an actual gay girl.” I let out a laugh but I was serious. I needed to move past this, and with Steve and Clare dating I’ll see Sophie a lot more. Time to dive into the world of online dating.

 

Chapter 9

 

A month or so has gone by. I and Sophie send a quick text back and forward every so often. But more friendly chit-chat than anything. I would say we’re friends now, no mention of that weekend again. I heard through Steve that Sophie’s been dating Alan. She hasn’t mentioned him to me, but that’s understandable after what happened last time. I’ve actually been avoiding Steve’s party’s, mainly because I don’t want to see Sophie with someone else, but also because I met someone online. An actual out and proud gay girl called Zoe.

She was beautiful. Her eyes were a deep blue that I just wanted to swim in every day. Her lips were a light pink and so kissable. Her ass was out of this world! She had long brunette hair, seems I might have a thing for brunettes. We were taking things slow though, kissing and a bit of touching but we haven’t slept together. I’m not complaining, I’ve been sorting myself out at night, but Sophie’s face always seems to creep back into my mind.

Zoe – Morning sexy. What time do you want to be picked up at? We can get ready at mine and go from there. Xx

I was finally bringing Zoe to meet everyone at Steve’s party tonight, I haven’t even let Jen meet her, because Jen will scare her off trying to be funny.

Me – Hey beautiful! Do you want to get me about 5? I told Steve we’ll be there at 10. That gives us plenty of time to have a few drinks and get undressed. Oh sorry, I mean dressed 😉 xx

Zoe – Cheeky.. you never know you might get lucky tonight 😉 5 is perfect see you soon babe xx

Fuck, I hope I get lucky tonight. My clit has been begging for someone else to touch it, and from the way Zoe can work her tongue when kissing me, I know she’s going to be able to have me screaming all night long. Okay Hannah, head out of the gutter. Pick something to wear tonight. I need something me, but still sexy to get Sophie going. Fuck. Zoe, I meant Zoe. Found the perfect thing. I’m going to wear my skinny ripped black jeans that show off my ass, my sexy black laced bra underneath, and I partly see-through white shirt, you can see right through to the bra, the best way to tease Zoe tonight. She won’t be able to resist ripping my clothes off when we get back.

When Zoe picks me up in just in my casual clothes, my black hoodie, and my black sweats, this is all she’s been used to seeing me in, but she doesn’t seem to care.

“Hey, gorgeous” I plant a small kiss on her cheek.

“Hey you, ready to go? Have you made sure to pack everything you need? Can’t have you ‘forgetting’ to bring something to wear to bed again” she cocks her eyebrow at me. I tried to pull a fast one to sleep naked beside her before saying I forgot to bring pajamas, but ‘luckily’ hers fit me.

“Yes boss I made sure to remember this time I promise”

“Okay well let’s go then” She’s so cute when she’s driving, she turns the volume of the radio down when she’s trying to concentrate and sings like a cat being strangled when she hears a song she loves. It doesn’t sound like it, but it’s really adorable.

When we get to her house we go upstairs to leave my bags in her room and I make a statement straight away. I pull her on top of me onto the bed and grab her for a deep passionate kiss. I’m so horny so I’m praying tonight is the night.

“Slow down Hannah, if you keep at that we won’t be going anywhere tonight” she looks flustered, I can tell she wants it just as bad as I do.

“Would that be such a bad thing?” I nibble at her neck and trace it gently with my tongue.

“Mmmmm. No, stop it you. Let’s get ready!” She jumps off me and giggles. “I’m going to sort drinks, the usual? Vodka white?”

“Yes please gorgeous”

“Okay, I’m going to make myself a long island, I need to calm my nerves so I shouldn’t be too long” she gives me a gentle kiss on the cheek and skips away. That’s my queue to get ready. It doesn’t take me long, I did most of what I needed to at home, showered, shaved, casual makeup. I just need to change my clothes and make my hair sexy/messy.

By the time she gets back with our drinks, I’m ready and sitting on the edge of her bed with my legs crossed and my shirt unbuttoned just enough to show some skin but still be classy at the same time.

“Holy shit.” She stands at the door frame holding our drinks staring at me with her mouth wide open, her pupils getting bigger. I stand up and slowly walk towards her, and take my drink.

“Thanks for the drink beautiful” I take a small drink and purposely lick my lips while looking directly into her eyes “Mmm that tastes so good”

“Um. Yeah..” she takes a big drink of her own and swallows hard. “I… I think I need another drink.. to calm down.. holy shit Hannah. You look incredible” She grabs me and kisses me hard, her tongue plunges deep into my mouth, I can feel her hunger like I’ve never felt before. “Okay. I need to get ready too. Please don’t distract me because I’m already very distracted by this” she looks me up and down and blushes.

“No problem, I’ll just stay over here and be good” I plant a kiss on her forehead and sit back down. I can feel it already, I’m having the best sex of my life tonight.

***

Shortly after 10, we arrive at Steve’s, I see Jen over talking to a few of our friends, surprisingly sober. A quick glance around the room and I see plenty of people that I and Jen really hate, thank god I have Zoe to keep me distracted!

“Jenny! Come here!” Jenny skips over straight away, I look at Zoe and she looks nervous, I give her a quick kiss and whisper “she’s going to love you” which makes her give me a nervous smile.

“Hannah, this party is shit! Full of every douchebag you could imagine” she turns her eyes to Zoe “Zozo!” She gives her a nickname already. She pulls her in for a big hug “I’m so glad to finally meet you! Hannah doesn’t shut up about you!”

“It’s nice to meet you too, Hannah’s always talking about you too”

“She better be! Here guys listen, as I said this party is shit, too many douchebags which mean there’ll be a fight at some point, so the girls and I are planning on showing our faces for the next hour and then going back to mine to have our own get together. Does that sound good?”

Zoe looks at me to make the call “Yeah Jen that sounds good, I’ll get me and Zoe a drink and introduce her to Steve, then we’ll get taxis organized”

“Okay perfect! See you soon! Nice to meet you Zozo!”

“Does she give all your girlfriends nicknames?” Girlfriend? When did that happen? I’m surprisingly okay with that label.

“What do you mean all my girlfriends? You’re the first one.” I give her a reassuring kiss and her eyes light up.

“Really? You’re trying to tell me that you don’t have a new girlfriend for each day of the week, looking like that” she gently works her hands down to my hips.

“It’s true, you’re the first, ask her yourself” She stares deeply into my eyes and this time gives me a slow but passionate kiss while gently scratching the back of my neck.

“Hey, loser!!” I broke the kiss to turn around and there I see Steve. He’s with Clare, Alan, and Sophie, who looks like she’s about to pass out. He starts to wave me over, time for Zoe to get thrown in with the lions. My eyes meet Sophie’s and my heart skips a beat. Oh shit…

 

Chapter 10

 

As we walk over to Steve I avoid eye contact with Sophie. Zoe grabs my hand and I give her a quick reassuring squeeze.

“Hey cuz! Party’s a bit bigger than usual don’t you think? Let’s hope no one sets your house on fire” He gives me an amused smile, Clare of course stands there with a face as if someone has just slapped her. I don’t dare to look at Sophie.

“Yeah I know, you know how it is, one person brings a friend who brings a friend who brings their whole phonebook. Speaking of, I assume this is Zoe?”

“Yeah it is, Zoe this is my cousin Steve and his girlfriend Clare. Guys this is my… girlfriend Zoe” I quickly glance at Sophie who looks broken.

“Girlfriend? Oh wow, I never thought I’d see the day! And I must say cuz, you are punching above your weight she is a solid 10/10!” Zoe’s face starts to go a bright red.

“Damn right she is” Alan peeps up, I look over and his eyes are about to pop out of his head. Sophie is looking at me as if I’ve betrayed her.

“Oh shit sorry, Zoe this is Alan and his Girlfriend Sophie” Zoe gives a quick smile.

“Hell no, I and Sophie aren’t official!” Alan makes sure to make that very clear and gives a deep laugh while saying it. Ouch.

“I’m going to get a drink” Sophie walks away not amused. Not sure if she’s walked away because of what Alan said, or because she can’t stand seeing me with Zoe.

“So anyway, I and Zoe just wanted to show our faces, but we’re going to Jenny’s for a small party soon, no offense cuz, but it’s not going to be a quiet night here” He nods in agreement. “Anyway, we should continue mingling. See ya!”

“Nice to met you all” Zoe says shyly.

When we walk away Zoe lets out a huge breath. “Jesus, I don’t know why but I was terrified! Do you think he likes me? His girlfriend didn’t seem too pleased.”

“Babe, she never seems too pleased, she has a permanent resting bitch face” I give her another reassuring smile and pull the stray hairs from her face.

“He’d be crazy not to like you” I give her a soft kiss. “Let’s get a few drinks before we leave”

“Okay” she pulls me in for another kiss, this one had meaning behind it. As we part lips and turn to walk towards the kitchen for a drink we see Sophie giving us an evil stare. She swallows her drink in one and slams down the cup and walks away “Jesus. She doesn’t seem too happy. I hope she doesn’t hate me for what the guys she’s with said”

“I’m sure she doesn’t babe, obviously she’s had too much to drink, c’mon” nope it’s more obvious that she hates me not Zoe. This is her own fault though. She didn’t want me, she let me go, I’m happy now she needs to deal with her own actions.